Venting i feel unlovable

[Leonard_Bangley39]

i wish i had a girlfriend that i could spend time with, but my life is a mess rn. i purposefully deny myself any chance at love because i feel like I'm unlovable and not deserving of love, even though all i want more than anything is to love someone.
i don't have too many issues getting along with people, i joke around and have fun with my classmates and roommates, but i always sabotage myself from forming any real connections with anyone. i distance and isolate myself because forming real relationships scares me. anytime i overheard people having serious conversations about things, it always feels like everyone around me is just so much more mature and put together then me. i tell myself I don't deserve friends or love. i can barely even stand fucking writing this because every thought just makes me hate myself more. why do i do this to myself? i know what i should do to make things better, but i never do them. i just fuck things up more and act sad about myself. i don't even think i know how to make and manage a relationship anymore as this point. i barely even know how to talk to people without preemptively sabotaging myself every chance i get. i just want a fucking girlfriend, i want to feel all the cute, lovey dovey shit you see in memes and shit. it fucking eats away at me every day

 

[justanotherfailure]

True love isn't the "cute lovey dovey shit" you see - they just want you to see the best parts of their relationship, but any real relationship is going to be hard. It's worth it. I hope you can get the courage to find true friends or even a girlfriend, because it's so much better than going through life alone. Everyone is deserving of love, and the people who are falling apart and don't have everything together are the people most in need of friends