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Tyra

Tyra

Pic is from Shawshank Redemption after he escaped.
Jul 22, 2026
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I've decided that I'm going to be slightly less selfish and do the harder thing and CTB at a hotel instead of at home where my family is.

I have bad social anxiety and mild autism, it is very hard for me to leave the house and interact with people.

But I feel like I need to do this because it could make things easier on my family.
If anyone could give me pointers, advice, and/or information on how hotels would work, I would appreciate it.
 
ketaminelover

ketaminelover

Ketamine Lover
Sep 3, 2025
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I've decided that I'm going to be slightly less selfish and do the harder thing and CTB at a hotel instead of at home where my family is.

I have bad social anxiety and mild autism, it is very hard for me to leave the house and interact with people.

But I feel like I need to do this because it could make things easier on my family.
If anyone could give me pointers, advice, and/or information on how hotels would work, I would appreciate it.
Go eat at a McDonalds by yourself. Then try a restaurant, try going to some store and asking for advice on something. Slowly build up confidence.

Hotels are simple. Book it (online possibly), then just come to the front desk, pay and be on your way. Easy.

Alcohol definitely helps with anxiety, just don't get too drunk.
 
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Tyra

Tyra

Pic is from Shawshank Redemption after he escaped.
Jul 22, 2026
168
Go eat at a McDonalds by yourself. Then try a restaurant, try going to some store and asking for advice on something. Slowly build up confidence.

Hotels are simple. Book it (online possibly), then just come to the front desk, pay and be on your way. Easy.

Alcohol definitely helps with anxiety, just don't get too drunk.
Or benzos maybe?

I also have a really large problem I forgot to mention. I have really bad PTSD of hotels.

When I actually imagined walking through the hotel and imagining it… I just get such a bad feeling and flashbacks. It's painful for me.
When I think of hotels, I think of the worst thing ever. I actually don't think I can do it.

So unfortunately I don't think I can do it in a hotel. Because I don't want my last moments to be even more mentally torturous than it needs to be.

Maybe I'll be okay tho when I acquire benzos.
 
ketaminelover

ketaminelover

Ketamine Lover
Sep 3, 2025
27
Or benzos maybe?

I also have a really large problem I forgot to mention. I have really bad PTSD of hotels.

When I actually imagined walking through the hotel and imagining it… I just get such a bad feeling and flashbacks. It's painful for me.
When I think of hotels, I think of the worst thing ever. I actually don't think I can do it.

So unfortunately I don't think I can do it in a hotel. Because I don't want my last moments to be even more mentally torturous than it needs to be.
Benzos even better if you have em.

If not a hotel maybe AirBnb? They let you check in without meeting anyone.
You could find a well rated hotel and straight up tell them that you have some issues and anxiety, any good establishment will try their best to help out.
 
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Nolongerlive

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Feb 28, 2026
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Maybe you can wear a sunglasses, those with darker color so that you dont see the people so much clearer.
 
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Estrella87

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Jul 27, 2026
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Hotel seems a better idea than parents tub. But if you are "scared" of hotels and interact with people, which I can understand, why not book a house or appartement on booking, from private owners check one with "check in anytime" and usually you have a box there with a code for get the keys by yourself.

Book for 2 nights at least, anyway you won't need your money where you go, and then you have all the time and tranquility to do your stuff. Also the advantage of such accommodations compared to hotels is there isn't room cleaning, they usually only clean when you leave, which will let you plenty of time.
 

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