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OtterFromTheCosmos

OtterFromTheCosmos

Overthinking Otter Boy
Mar 19, 2026
25
Hello

Recently, I was very close to finally CTB'ing, but I was held back

I was thinking of jumping from a building, but I had a fear of death and a fear of heights that I couldn't get over

Does anyone know how I can get over this? I genuinely think this is the only thing standing in the way of me CTB'ing
 
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Spit On My Grave
Apr 7, 2026
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Most of them had no choices so they decided to do it to prevent further misery. It is a sad story.
 
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LastLightFade...

LastLightFade...

Member
Jan 12, 2026
42
Hello

Recently, I was very close to finally CTB'ing, but I was held back
I was thinking of jumping from a building, but I had a fear of death and a fear of heights that I couldn't get over

Does anyone know how I can get over this? I genuinely think this is the only thing standing in the way of me CTB'ing
If you're too scared of dying, try a different way. I don't think you're ready to kill yourself if you're afraid of death, but I think you're just scared of the method. Make sure to genuinely considering this decision you will not be able to reverse though think of the possible outcomes.
 
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OtterFromTheCosmos

OtterFromTheCosmos

Overthinking Otter Boy
Mar 19, 2026
25
If you're too scared of dying, try a different way. I don't think you're ready to kill yourself if you're afraid of death, but I think you're just scared of the method. Make sure to genuinely considering this decision you will not be able to reverse though think of the possible outcomes.
Thank you

Maybe you're right

I Just feel like I might be a bit silly for wanting to die, but just not having the courage at all when I'm at the final step to comitting....
 
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LastLightFade...

LastLightFade...

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Jan 12, 2026
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I Just feel like I might be a bit silly for wanting to die, but just not having the courage at all when I'm at the final step to comitting....
I've been the same way with the amount of times I tried to kill myself by hanging I may go through with gun once the time comes I'll give myself about 6 years left before I go through with the deicision though.
 
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