My mind is war torn between reaching out for help or just faking it until I get a chance to ctb. I have so much trauma and most it of sounds straight up crazy. Like how do i explain to my therapist that I was sold for drugs and gangraped to the point where i pissed blood (by my best friend at the time she's dead now which gives me partly peace partly anger that i didn't get justice.) There's just some traumas that I feel like you can't get through even with therapy.
I want out so bad but I don't have the right means to actually ctb right now.
I want out so bad but I don't have the right means to actually ctb right now.
