Hello, I'm someone who's been thinking of ctb for years now but I've never managed to find the conviction to do it. I tell myself that there will come one day where I'd be so tired of everything around me that I'd eventually decide to do it on the spot but I don't want to wait for a day that may never come. I'm a numb person I've been getting more and more lethargic to the point of not taking care of myself anymore. I barely move anymore one could say I'm similar to a zombie. I've lost the will to live and I don't trust myself to build the conviction to ctb which is why I'd like to hear about your experience on the matter. Thank you for taking the time to read this.
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sifp
Member
- Aug 19, 2026
- 82
Very gradually in small spurts of forcing myself. It's been about a year and I'm like 50% there with what I need.
NonEssential
Hanging in there
- Jan 15, 2025
- 589
I got a plan because there is no 'sudden on the spot' method available for me like a gun. An attempt with no plan most likely would result with surviving and only making life even worse.Similar threads
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