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lifelite

lifelite

Member
Dec 8, 2023
43
Just qurious. Mine is like, life, but not very meaningful, so lite
 
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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Enlightened
Apr 15, 2024
1,677
I got mine from a quote from the TV show House MD where Dr. House asks why people drink and answers that it's for killing pain:

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This show inspired me to take opioids and drink, lol. Big mistake, but felt good, especially the opioids (I'm all clean and sober now again though).
 
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LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

Angelic
Jul 23, 2022
4,383
It comes from a French expression meaning to view life optimistically (literally see life in pink) which I thought was appealingly ironic for a suicide forum handle and then French for a touch of whimsy and chic.
 
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litekiller11

litekiller11

Member
May 31, 2024
32
i created in 2011 when i was playing shooter games in ps3
 
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innominesatanas44

innominesatanas44

🇷🇸
Feb 16, 2023
165
Name of a Bathory song
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

Pollyanna, loon, believer in love, believer in you
Sep 19, 2023
1,992
1000020322

Seriously I'd been on the original Reddit group and thought 'eh I'll make an account on this new thing and see what's up' and just picked something stupid
 
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kilowatt

kilowatt

Like an Agalloch song
Sep 9, 2023
379
Chewing on batteries
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,803
My username choice should be self explanatory
 
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Buffy

Buffy

24/7 cold
Mar 17, 2024
100
My username is the name of a plushie I used to have. I threw it away after a girl scared me by saying that stuffed animals get possessed by djins at night.

Rip buffy the cow🥲
 
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LunarLight

LunarLight

i'm a loser, a failure
Apr 3, 2024
1,364
Name of a Lustre song.

 
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_AllCatsAreGrey_

_AllCatsAreGrey_

(they/he)
Mar 4, 2024
617
My username is one of my favorite Cure songs.



I never thought that I would find myself
In bed amongst the stones
The columns are all men
Begging to crush me
No shapes sail on the dark deep lakes
And no flags wave me home

In the caves
All cats are grey
In the caves
The textures coat my skin
In the death cell
A single note
Rings on and on and on…

This is what Lol Tolhurst wrote about it in Goth: A History:
"For 'All Cats Are Grey,' I wrote about my mother's impending demise from cancer. Full of despair and pain anticipating that coming event, I couldn't bear to wait for the end. So I wrote a song about it. The first verse is about the surprise at waiting in the anteroom for death, imagining what's coming next. I saw it as a vast, empty place where no one is allowed to leave just yet. According to Roman Catholic doctrine, the souls of those who die in God's grace may make satisfaction for past sins and become fit for heaven. Those who aren't in a state of grace go to purgatory, a kind of eternal waiting room, which is a very Catholic notion. For the second part I used the idiom 'in the dark all cats are grey,' which means that in darkness appearances are meaningless. My mother told me this was an expression they used during the blackout of World War II. When Hitler's bombers came to London, the whole city went dark to avoid giving them easy targets. The insinuation was that during a romantic tryst in the dark you might not know what the other person looked like or even know who they were, but it didn't matter. In wartime, there is only now. The next part is about disappearing into the next world imagined in the afterlife. Sound, vision, and touch being very different senses toward the end of life, without normal earthly boundaries. Imagining the last thing you hear before passing is 'a single note' that rings forever. I wanted to get across the idea that it's as much about my feeling of imagining this happening as me imagining what her experience going through the end might be like. I wanted to feel what she felt. The only way to accept or acknowledge the pain she was going through was this profound act of empathy, which in retrospect was very Goth of me, though that word wouldn't have occurred to me then."
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,961
My username translates to: It's better to die.

The sentence below the avatar translates to: It's better to die than to suffer this.

I chose this username bc I think there's truth in it. My username is Latin.
 
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Theresnoescape

Theresnoescape

Student
May 29, 2024
122
Mine is how I've felt my whole life, there's always someone or something that needs something from me, and there's no escape from it.
 
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lissa

Member
Nov 21, 2023
13
I just picked a random female name, not very unique I know
Mine is how I've felt my whole life, there's always someone or something that needs something from me, and there's no escape from it.
Yeah, it feels like we only have one way to get out of this huh
 
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Alexei_Kirillov

Alexei_Kirillov

More beast than man
Mar 9, 2024
1,133
I picked mine from a character in a Dostoyevsky novel (Demons) who kills himself for philosophical reasons. In hindsight I should've added some kind of qualifier because now it's just indistinguishable from a real name lol.
 
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thebelljarrr

thebelljarrr

Student
Apr 26, 2024
102
♥️
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"I couldn't feel a thing. If Mrs Guinea had given me a ticket to Europe, or a round-the-world cruise, it wouldn't have made one scrap of difference to me, because wherever I sat - on the deck of a ship or at a street cafe in Paris or Bangkok- I would be sitting under the same glass bell jar, stewing in my own sour air."
 
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Rocinante

My name is Lucifer, please take my hand
Aug 26, 2022
1,469
Took it from Don Quixote
 
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Alexei_Kirillov

Alexei_Kirillov

More beast than man
Mar 9, 2024
1,133
♥️

"I couldn't feel a thing. If Mrs Guinea had given me a ticket to Europe, or a round-the-world cruise, it wouldn't have made one scrap of difference to me, because wherever I sat - on the deck of a ship or at a street cafe in Paris or Bangkok- I would be sitting under the same glass bell jar, stewing in my own sour air."
That line really hit me when I first read it because it was so different than the usual "there's so much to experience, even if you're depressed, get out there and do things!" mindset that a lot of well-meaning people have and it's like...no, you don't get it....the problem is not that I'm not doing those activities and having those experiences, it's that even if I was, I'm incapable of getting anything out of them.
 
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schmerz

schmerz

if i don't survive, i'll still be by your side
Jul 7, 2024
26
it's the german word for pain
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,251
It's an anagram for something.
 
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Tr3dorz

Tr3dorz

"Broken hands, uncertain destiny"
Jul 10, 2024
15
- What name should I give my user?

*Five minutes later*

- I have an idea! *Writes randomly* Yes, I'll call my user: Tr3dorz.


Well, I'm not the most interesting or intelligent person in the world.
 
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(in)sane

(in)sane

"If you are alone you belong entirely to yourself"
Jun 9, 2024
38
I don't even remember but it's fitting
 
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Nefera

Nefera

Member
Jun 30, 2024
55
Monster high character
 
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untothedepths

untothedepths

each day the dread increases
Mar 20, 2023
634
Just something edgy. You know. being on a suicide forum and all. Seriously, don't know, just the first thing i could pathetically think of.
 
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M3lancholia

M3lancholia

Hold my hand. Close your eyes đź’•
Jun 28, 2024
33
One of my fave films - Melancholia ❤️

 
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Pathetic and Sad

Pathetic and Sad

Just going through life's motions
May 21, 2024
152
An online friend I had called me that when I told him I had no friends irl. He blocked me the next day and I found this place on the same day (:
 
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Theresnoescape

Theresnoescape

Student
May 29, 2024
122
An online friend I had called me that when I told him I had no friends irl. He blocked me the next day and I found this place on the same day (:
He was never really a friend then.
 
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