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I'm in a similar spot. Don't feel ashamed, it's not your fault or brain was built this way. I'd imagine your suicidality comes from a fear of your dreams going unfulfilled, since that's the case for me. Remember, there's many angles to approach everything, so don't give up after just one try. Sometimes your desired goals will change, which is totally normal. If you discover a career path that's more attainable and desirable, don't be afraid to shift gear. I don't know what your goals are, but hopefully that sort of general advice is relevant in some way.
Well in general I want to go to a prestigious college for archetecture even though the school I'm going to right now isn't exactly the worst it could be. I feel like my opportunities are very limited and I don't think I can go to the college I want because of what little me school offers. I'm might just be afraid that I'm not going to enjoy life and it will become a terrible place because of the decisions that I am making right now.
It is okay to be afraid of failure. It means that your goals are real. But never let this fear prevent you from attempting to accomplish your dreams.
It's a little of both, I want to be one of the best in the craft and I think that going to a good college is going to be extremely valuable. I also feel like sometimes thinking about the future can be daunting and that's where a source of those thoughts come from.
I think you put too much pressure onto yourself. Do what you can but don't stress yourself too much bc that can also lead to depressive episodes "burnout". Try to reach your goals there's no need to be always among the best.
I don't mean to shoot you down, but I recommend only going for big colleges if there's something only they can offer. They're crazy expensive and since there's a lot of money to be made, the teachers might be driven more by profit than passion. That being said prestigious colleges do look good on resumes and I don't know much about architecture, so there may be something in that field only those colleges offer. I'm just cautious of big colleges in general because I've gotten a ton of value out of less expensive institutes.
