Venting House chores makes me angry.

[BlueberryDeer]

I lack of a proper cleaning habits and I usually clean up when it's nearly a health hazard. But the thing is I never finished properly and always left something to sort or put in place.
And I hate iron my clothes. I must do for my workplace, since is on site.
And, for some reason, cleaning, cooking and ironing makes me angry. Makes me frustrated and daydream to win the lottery to paid a maid for me. But since I'm poor, I need to resolve by my own.
I lack of efficiency in that chores. I feel exhaust after 20, 30 minutes of dusting or pass the mop. I want to sleep all the weekend, but at least Sunday is the day of the chores, and I often didn't finish someone of the essential ones (Example : I skip the laundry and do the lunchboxes, or I did the laundry but not do the food for the lunchboxes of the weekdays).
So I feel trapped. I don't know how to resolve this cycle.

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

Same. I unwillingly start cleaning when I see bugs. And I always end up wasting time to read irrelevant fliers I threw about

 

[gunmetalblue]

I feel you. I've been trying to throttle myself to do some cleaning for a week now.

I made a thread roughly about this subject some time back, maybe something on there could help. Good luck and I'm sorry you struggle with this.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/for-those-living-alone-how-do-you-manage-to-clean-regularly.223624/

 

[pokerrkitty]

The only reason i've managed to maintain the ability to clean at all is because the person I live with would notice if I started to decline there. Whenever I have extended time to myself things become almost impossible for me to maintain

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm the same. I deeply detest all things domestic. Part of my problem is also that I'll leave things to get really bad before I tackle them so- it becomes so much worse. I so deeply resent being alive when I have to do all that shit.

 

[author]

Same here. It feels so fucking sisyphean.