Venting Horrible night

[LittleJem]

Just venting....

My eyes hurt and I'm exhausted. I did sleep, but kept waking up to wee. Every time I wake up, the suicidal thoughts are back immediately. I wish I was still asleep. I took my 'best pills' this morning, and suicidal thoughts still constant. No pill or drug gives relief. Last week, these pills were helping. This is torture, it's been years. How much longer do I stick this.

Oh yeah, I havent done my laundry in weeks, and havent changed my clothes for a week. Nice.

 

[itsgone2]

Years? Awful that we have to endure this. I'm years too, but off and on. We shouldn't have to live like this. Peaceful option should exist.

My house is a mess. No food here I barely ate yesterday. I won't eat much today.

We have to find a way to get this over with

Laundry. It's such a small task and I have a hard time with it too actually need detergent. I almost don't know how to do this anymore.

I'm supposed to buy detergent and do laundry for the rest of my life? No, I don't think so.