I’ve failed suicide by hanging earlier this year. I’ve tried over thirty times but aborted nearly all before fainting out of pain and fear of dying. Even though I’d been 100% committed to die, I couldn't help but stop at the last second. I got myself to fall unconscious three times, but I don't how my body was strong enough to wake up. I was able to stand up because I did partial suspension. I’m preparing for another attempt soon in a better setting. I’ll do partial suspension again because it’s less painful and dreadful than the full. However, this time considering alcohol with overdose (Quetiapine) prior to the attempt to weaken me.
FYI, it’s fairly quick but not painless. I found that counting 1–15 distracts me from the pain and bear it longer.