Hopefully this is goodbye

[PursuitofWonder]

So I have been using the H I got recreationally for a little bit and ended up binging a bit. Parents figured it out pretty quick and I'm now in complete lockdown mode. Now seems as good a time as there ever will be. They don't understand that punishing me for these things only makes it worse but I suppose they'll figure that out once I'm gone. I'll reply to this thread when I dose in probably 9 or so hours. I have a tolerance now and not that much H so it's a gamble but I will try partial if it fails. Love all of you in this forum and I hope to god I succeed.

 

[Wrennie]

Good luck! I wish you all the best with your chosen method.

 

[jaybeex2]

I hope you find peace

 

[Deleted member 25349]

Good luck!!!!!!

 

[WornOutLife]

Good luck with your chosen method. Wish you the best and hope you can be at peace!

 

[NegativeSymptoms]

 

[Nodscene]

Sorry if I'm confused but are you doing a partial first? I hope not as I'd hate to see you fail and then not have enough for a second try. Now I know nothing about H (honestly wish I could get some and go that way after enjoying it for a bit) so I defer to your expertise.

Best of luck and may peace come swiftly and painlessly.

 

[Nymph]

Sad to see another one that was led to this path:( I hope you find peace

 

[PursuitofWonder]

Sorry if I'm confused but are you doing a partial first? I hope not as I'd hate to see you fail and then not have enough for a second try. Now I know nothing about H (honestly wish I could get some and go that way after enjoying it for a bit) so I defer to your expertise.

Best of luck and may peace come swiftly and painlessly.

H is first and if I wake up in the morning I'll try partial

 

[Nodscene]

Sorry, I was confused for a second and thought you were taking about doing a partial dose of h haha.

 

[sadworld]

Good luck and safe travels! I hope you'll find peace!

 

[pen]

It's just me or I'm wrong thinking attempted opiates overdose is risky, the respiratory depression caused by it, impairing oxygenation of the brain, leading to a less functional one.

Also, golden shot is a rare phenomena.

OP did you're prepared to do the partial "read all the useful information in this forum"?

What's that's bothering you so much?, no more depression inducing drug or what?

Sorry to be so harsh

 

[yeahwellso]

It's just me or I'm wrong thinking attempted opiates overdose is risky, the respiratory depression caused by it, impairing oxygenation of the brain, leading to a less functional one.

No, it's not just you. Anyone with any knowledge about it is aware that brain damage is a plausible outcome.

 

[Nodscene]

Definitely a possibility especially if you get discovered. I was extraordinarily lucky not to have any brain damage or even something from the vegetable family.

 

[deadspirit]

Good luck and hopefully you have a peaceful journey!

 

[PursuitofWonder]

It's just me or I'm wrong thinking attempted opiates overdose is risky, the respiratory depression caused by it, impairing oxygenation of the brain, leading to a less functional one.

Also, golden shot is a rare phenomena.

OP did you're prepared to do the partial "read all the useful information in this forum"?

What's that's bothering you so much?, no more depression inducing drug or what?

Sorry to be so harsh

I am well aware of brain damage risk. I have read the entire partial hanging guide and some other related things. Hopefully I'm prepared enough. Why I am inclined to act with the smaller amount of H is that I likely will not be able to get access for a long time so this is kind of my final chance to take advantage. It may be risky but after this is gone it's going to be a hell of a lot harder to get supplies.

 

[Meretlein]

I hope you find peace.

 

[Thanatonaut]

I wish you luck but opiate tolerances build fast. If you've been using recreationally, you'd need a massive amount to reliably CTB.

 

[PursuitofWonder]

I wish you luck but opiate tolerances build fast. If you've been using recreationally, you'd need a massive amount to reliably CTB.

You're right and there's not a lot of certainty here. I've used for 3 days total with 2 days in between so maybe that will have kept tolerance down. I'd say I have about 4-6 times at least of what a regular dose is to me.

 

[Donk]

sorry life has lead you to this point. wish you a peaceful journey and this world will be missing another beautiful soul.

 

[greyhound]

It's just me or I'm wrong thinking attempted opiates overdose is risky, the respiratory depression caused by it, impairing oxygenation of the brain, leading to a less functional one.

Totally agree. There are members on the forum who have brain damage from opiate ODs without dying. Don't take a dose of opiates if you think you might OD but not die.

You're right and there's not a lot of certainty here. I've used for 3 days total with 2 days in between so maybe that will have kept tolerance down. I'd say I have about 4-6 times at least of what a regular dose is to me.

That amount just sounds like you're asking for trouble. In the DDMP2 protocol they give the person 15 grams of morphine despite the lethal dose being like 200mg for someone without tolerance.

 

[pen]

Then use the heroin, and before nodding, do the partial.

Be safe and goodbye

 

[PursuitofWonder]

Totally agree. There are members on the forum who have brain damage from opiate ODs without dying. Don't take a dose of opiates if you think you might OD but not die.


That amount just sounds like you're asking for trouble. In the DDMP2 protocol they give the person 15 grams of morphine despite the lethal dose being like 200mg for someone without tolerance.

Yeah it's Troublesome I'm really not denying that. I finally weighed it and I have about 274mg +/- 6mg. Considering H is 2 times morphine potency I have a hefty amount but it's still a fair gamble. I'm set on it despite this and am aware of the risks. Dose is prepared and I will take when I work past my SI.

 

[stygal]

Hopefully you made your peace with everything that has happened in your life and are now able to move on in a smooth and painless way.
Safe journey! <3

 

[PursuitofWonder]

UPDATE: I took about half or so and am just having serious second thoughts so I'm gonna sit down think about this. Nodding pretty hard as well.

I will post back on this thread in an hour or two to update y'all

 

[pen]

We're waiting for you to come back soon?

Just joking

 

[PursuitofWonder]

We're waiting for you to come back soon?

Just joking

Lmaoo I ended up passing out for a long ass time and just woke up and vomited. Realized how not fully committed I am so I'll have to wait for another time.

 

[lost_soul83]

Lmaoo I ended up passing out for a long ass time and just woke up and vomited. Realized how not fully committed I am so I'll have to wait for another time.

We'll all be here for you