Hopefull of my plans

[Nortu]

I've gotten the first part of my preperations in the box now. Meeting my penpal in person After 4 years Since last time. It'll be towards the end of summer.
If everything Else goes as I hope then this summer I'll know if I can move out and start at a university. But during summer I'll work as much as I can so price for what I need wont be too much of an issue.
I have found a place that possibly I could order pure SN from but I wont proceed until I know for sure I could get a shipment to a personal adress (Current one is shared with my parents).

So like said, if everything goes smoothly from this point on I'll be able to finally leave this year.
Aquiring medication here is difficult so I wont be able to get ahold of any benzos or similarly. So I'm thinking of just buying a couple bottle of a fair % vodka. Wait until I'm close to blacking out and having the SN around that time. I'm not much of a puker so that might not be as much as a problem hopefully. But just in case I hit the 40min or so mark and still present I'll have prepared for partial hanging.
I just seriously need to get away from everything, I'm sick of this. I just hope its possible soon

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best with your plans and I hope that you find what you are searching for, it's very much understandable wishing to finally be free from this awful world.

 

[Nortu]

I wish you the best with your plans and I hope that you find what you are searching for, it's very much understandable wishing to finally be free from this awful world.

Thank you ^ - ^
But yeah it's been years and it won't get better so it's better to just leave when I can really

 

[wiltingorchid]

I hope that everything will go as planned for you. It is really bad you can't get your hands on benzos, they really make leaving much easier. But I think that vodka should also do it.

 

[Nortu]

I hope that everything will go as planned for you. It is really bad you can't get your hands on benzos, they really make leaving much easier. But I think that vodka should also do it.

Thanks for the well wishes <3
It's quite unfortunate yeah but that what I get for living in a heavily restricted country xd

 

[Dead Meat]

Best wishes to you @Nortu for a very pleasant and comfortable journey, may you have everlasting peace and serenity you Beautiful Soul

 

[dimstar]

Do not use alchohol with sn. It will not have the effects your expecting. Will only increase the chances of vomiting, sn is poison after all. Also you need a 2 hour liquid fast before taking the sn so it would be wearing off or youd be passing out if going hard on the bottle.

 

[Nortu]

Do not use alchohol with sn. It will not have the effects your expecting. Will only increase the chances of vomiting, sn is poison after all. Also you need a 2 hour liquid fast before taking the sn so it would be wearing off or youd be passing out if going hard on the bottle.

Ah shit alright then maybe not :/
I just don't know what else to turn to since restrictions here on most dozing off and relaxation kind of meds. Are there any other alternatives you know of thats easy to get ahold of?

 

[dimstar]

Otc sleeping pills. Should help you lose consciousness faster. Rc benzos or finding the right people on the street. At least worth trying going to a doc saying you've had panic attacks and need a short solution for some upcoming event that's causing panic attacks.

 

[Nortu]

Otc sleeping pills. Should help you lose consciousness faster. Rc benzos or finding the right people on the street. At least worth trying going to a doc saying you've had panic attacks and need a short solution for some upcoming event that's causing panic attacks.

That makes sense, might very well check on it next time I'm at a pharmacy. But thank you for the advice. I've had a diagnosis of anxiety so it should be more believable from saying that too :]
Thank you so much ^ - ^

 

[dimstar]

That makes sense, might very well check on it next time I'm at a pharmacy. But thank you for the advice. I've had a diagnosis of anxiety so it should be more believable from saying that too :]
Thank you so much ^ - ^

Of course! Dont ask directly just describe your previous sever symptoms and the leading event. Make sure it's nothing that would involve driving or things like self medicating. Just say it's getting worse and you cant see how you'll get through it. They might give you a week script but dont hold your breath. Doctors are very hesitant. Describe panic attacks look up symptoms.

 

[Nortu]

Of course! Dont ask directly just describe your previous sever symptoms and the leading event. Make sure it's nothing that would involve driving or things like self medicating. Just say it's getting worse and you cant see how you'll get through it. They might give you a week script but dont hold your breath. Doctors are very hesitant. Describe panic attacks look up symptoms.

Have had firsthand experience with it so I could fairly easily describe previous cases of it. Since around the time Im thinking of aquiring what I need I will have moved city then that's possibly seen as a genuine reason for stress :3
But yeah I'm not counting on it, and if it doesn't work then I'll just go through with it without anything extra. I'm willing to do it like that at this point honestly :/

 

[Zegers]

It is not suggested to drink alcohol before taking SN. Best wishes, the summer months, if all goes well, will also be the way out for me.

 

[Nortu]

It is not suggested to drink alcohol before taking SN. Best wishes, the summer months, if all goes well, will also be the way out for me.

Yea I've understood that 'bout the alcohol now, thanks for saying it anyhow :>

Hope your plans go the way you wish for too, wish you all the best <3