Hope to be gone tonight..

[Ghost2211]

That's why I'm too scared to ever consider train. It either goes great or horrifically wrong.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

..around 23:30 central European time my train should arrive.
Understand my method is not very popular but its also quite difficult to jump. Its the most reliable method I have so far.
I don't expect much compassion since I'm not a very compassionate person.
I swore to myself that I would take an Irish exit, even online. But you guys are all I have.
Not gonna bore you with the main reasons for ctb many will probably not believe me anyway.
If you have any ideas for overcoming SI I'm all ears.

Maybe you can get or add fentanyl,morphine or Heroin to your method? These opiods remove all pain of other methods and can be a method. Best methods imo.

Many people say Heroin is the best feeling possible on Earth. What a way to go? i never tried it . i want to ctb just don't want pain and don't want to become addicted though.

 

[Cherrypea]

Sending love and peace xxx

 

[Niirvana]

Did u not think of other methods like sn or hanging?
I think that the train is instantaneous if it is done well and you would not feel pain, as long as you master the SI or you are so sure that you do not care about anything

 

[StateOfMind]

Did u not think of other methods like sn or hanging?
I think that the train is instantaneous if it is done well and you would not feel pain, as long as you master the SI or you are so sure that you do not care about anything

I have thought about many methods and I think this is the best one for me.
I agree.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I have thought about many methods and I think this is the best one for me.
I agree.

i hope it goes how you want it to. A lot of your posts were good.

 

[Niirvana]

I have thought about many methods and I think this is the best one for me.
I agree.

So send u my best wishes and hugs.
I wish I was as brave as you ♥

 

[StateOfMind]

Thank you for all the lovely comments guys I really appreciate it!
In an hour from now I will head off.
If I don't report back by around midnight CET you know I have succeeded.

Brother I'm so sorry for the pain and difficulties you have had that have brought you to this dark place.
I honestly and sincerely hope that some peace can find you.
The method is controversial but you seem to be square with the merits in you mind, lots of people weigh this one up.
I wish you nothing but peace and love my brother and no matter where your journey takes you, be that tonight or in another life time you find your peace.
DBD

Thanks brother!

Wishing you peace dude. It's one hell of an exit!

Thanks dude! Right?

 

[MariV]

well SN is reasonably easy to get. i can help you with it so that you dont use a violent method.
but i dont judge you if you cant wait for the delivery and want to ctb right now. know the feeling

 

[Regen]

I'm thinking of you. I failed three times catching the train. The SI was too strong.
I know hit by train is a tabu even in suicide circles. And I understand the reasons. But sometimes there is no other way.
Standing with your back to the train could work well. You hear and feel the train arriving... maybe you should try a powerful and loud music. And maybe you will place your ID-card next to the railway... :-/
I'm sorry you are in so much pain that you need to go. I hope you are sucessful. No reason to be ashamed if you postpone!!
May peace take you from sadness to happiness.

 

[Silver]

Thank you for all the lovely comments guys I really appreciate it!
In an hour from now I will head off.
If I don't report back by around midnight CET you know I have succeeded.

Thinking of you

 

[Huntfish34]

Damn,. I'm sorry to hear all of this.. May you have peace and rest,. Forever and Always. Prayers to you.

 

[StateOfMind]

Well, at least I got some fresh air while the weather is still nice lol.
My excuse is the change in patterns of certain passenger displays and train operator signaling systems.
I'm reliant on those to give me a feel of when my train is coming..

Pay attention to your SI, maybe you are not quite ready?

No.
SI is an instinct and has nothing to do with logic.
Logic tells me that I have no meaningful future.
One must override SI.
Many many people have done it before, we can do it too!

 

[Winka]

Espero que tudo corra bem para você, sinto muito por ter que fazer isso, mas eu realmente espero que você não sinta dor. Eu gostaria de poder ir, mas meu marido não vai viver sem mim e mesmo que eu quero ser morto Eu não quero que ele morra também.

 

[StateOfMind]

Espero que tudo corra bem para você, sinto muito por ter que fazer isso, mas eu realmente espero que você não sinta dor. Eu gostaria de poder ir, mas meu marido não vai viver sem mim e mesmo que eu quero ser morto Eu não quero que ele morra também.

Google translate detected Portuguese:

"I hope everything goes well for you, I'm sorry for having to do this, but I really hope you don't feel pain. I wish I could go, but my husband won't live without me and even though I want to be killed I don't want him to die either."

 

[Niirvana]

Well, at least I got some fresh air while the weather is still nice lol.
My excuse is the change in patterns of certain passenger displays and train operator signaling systems.
I'm reliant on those to give me a feel of when my train is coming..

No.
SI is an instinct and has nothing to do with logic.
Logic tells me that I have no meaningful future.
One must override SI.
Many many people have done it before, we can do it too!

I really like what u said. How r u now?

 

[StateOfMind]

I really like what u said. How r u now?

Thank you.
Not sure how to respond to that. Still have a little pizza so I guess I'm good?

 

[Niirvana]

Thank you.
Not sure how to respond to that. Still have a little pizza so I guess I'm good?

It's a good way to say goodbye to life xd

 

[StateOfMind]

I'm thinking of you. I failed three times catching the train. The SI was too strong.
I know hit by train is a tabu even in suicide circles. And I understand the reasons. But sometimes there is no other way.
Standing with your back to the train could work well. You hear and feel the train arriving... maybe you should try a powerful and loud music. And maybe you will place your ID-card next to the railway... :-/
I'm sorry you are in so much pain that you need to go. I hope you are sucessful. No reason to be ashamed if you postpone!!
May peace take you from sadness to happiness.

I feel if your going for train that might need some practice. Familiarize yourself with the environment establish train patterns and signals etc.
Train will remain a taboo as long as its not discussed.
This could work.
Thank you for the wishes!