Honestly.. do you think suicide for a girl is stupid?

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

I really love her..
I got really depressed when i start to talk with her
Because i feelt that im not enough for her, no job/money,no friend, abusive jobless parents, still virgin, almost all my life as hikikomori and quited school because bullism and parents problems,
i started to have constantly suicide thought and take less self care of myself didnt even have the strenght to go out of my bed, im not even funny.. silent all time

I felt that "how can i explain to her all of this?"
If not enough i started to be hated by her because she realized that im jealous of her..
She now have a boyfriend and i cant handle the idea that she is having sex and fun moments with him

Its almost a year now.. and im still thinking about her h24 even cry

What do you think about suicide for a girl? is your same reason?

 

[AllFoxedOut]

I understand a little bit of what you're going through, the love of my life left me very recently and although I struggled with suicidality and stuff before that I wasn't trying to order SN but now here I am. so I guess you could say I want to CTB over a girl too... so no, I don't think it's dumb

 

[soft-flower345]

I'm sorry the end of your relationship with her has caused you so much agony

I don't think it's stupid, so long as your decision to ctb is well premeditated and you aren't making an impulsive attempt shortly after having been heartbroken. It's almost been a year, so you've had a lot of time to think about this since. Ultimately it is your life, you can choose to end it for whatever reason you want and I think it's valid, so long as it isn't done impulsively.

From what you put in the post, it seems it isn't just the pain of no longer having her as your partner that may have led you to this contemplation. Being a hikki, being bullied, being subjected to abuse by your parents, so many people have taken their lives over just one of these.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

I'm sorry the end of your relationship with her has caused you so much agony

I don't think it's stupid, so long as your decision to ctb is well premeditated and you aren't making an impulsive attempt shortly after having been heartbroken. It's almost been a year, so you've had a lot of time to think about this since. Ultimately it is your life, you can choose to end it for whatever reason you want and I think it's valid, so long as it isn't done impulsively.

heartbreak makes me wish love never existed at all

 

[bunn1bel]

it's not committing suicide because of a girl, really. your heartbreak is an addition to all of the pain, depression, and inadequacy you already felt. jealousy can be physically sickening and it can be obsessive so maybe you worry that it seems you're committing over the girl, the heartbreak you feel can just be what pushes you over the edge.

i have felt depressed and suicidal regardless of my boyfriend but he is considering leaving me soon because, maybe he feels i can't get better and ill always be a needy depressive failure. if he leaves, i know it will make me want to die but i also know it won't just be because he left me. im not killing myself over a boy but the heartbreak being the obsessive feeling on top of the depression i already have might make it seem or feel that way.

 

[soft-flower345]

heartbreak makes me wish love never existed at all

Me too, I can't even articulate a description of the feeling. Now that I know what it feels like, I think I'd rather have died than experience true heartbreak.

That's just me though, I'm a little too emotionally sensitive. But that can't be helped.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

I'm sorry the end of your relationship with her has caused you so much agony

I don't think it's stupid, so long as your decision to ctb is well premeditated and you aren't making an impulsive attempt shortly after having been heartbroken. It's almost been a year, so you've had a lot of time to think about this since. Ultimately it is your life, you can choose to end it for whatever reason you want and I think it's valid, so long as it isn't done impulsively.

From what you put in the post, it seems it isn't just the pain of no longer having her as your partner that may have led you to this contemplation. Being a hikki, being bullied, being subjected to abuse by your parents, so many people have taken their lives over just one of these.

The edit to your post is true, and I thought the same thing. just didn't mention it. it sounds like your life has been wrought with more struggle than JUST unrequited love; even if unrequited love is what has pushed you to this point

Me too, I can't even articulate a description of the feeling. Now that I know what it feels like, I think I'd rather have died than experience true heartbreak.

That's just me though, I'm a little too emotionally sensitive. But that can't be helped.

I consider myself sensitive too, so its okay. but yeah you're right. it's hard to articulate how it feels, it's like what you thought was stable ground crumbling beneath your feet and you fall, fall and fall until you slam into the ground and rubble smooshes your chest.

it's not committing suicide because of a girl, really. your heartbreak is an addition to all of the pain, depression, and inadequacy you already felt. jealousy can be physically sickening and it can be obsessive so maybe you worry that it seems you're committing over the girl, the heartbreak you feel can just be what pushes you over the edge.

i have felt depressed and suicidal regardless of my boyfriend but he is considering leaving me soon because, maybe he feels i can't get better and ill always be a needy depressive failure. if he leaves, i know it will make me want to die but i also know it won't just be because he left me. im not killing myself over a boy but the heartbreak being the obsessive feeling on top of the depression i already have might make it seem or feel that way.

100% agree. it's what pushed you over the edge, @EndJstifiesTheMeans

 

[soft-flower345]

The edit to your post is true, and I thought the same thing. just didn't mention it. it sounds like your life has been wrought with more struggle than JUST unrequited love; even if unrequited love is what has pushed you to this point

I consider myself sensitive too, so its okay. but yeah you're right. it's hard to articulate how it feels, it's like what you thought was stable ground crumbling beneath your feet and you fall, fall and fall until you slam into the ground and rubble smooshes your chest.

100% agree. it's what pushed you over the edge, @EndJstifiesTheMeans

That's a good way to put it, really captures the feeling you get when you first start to realize what was once a stable fixture of support and comfort in your life has vanished, and all the beautiful memories and things you built and were so exited to build on this pillar are just, crumbling without the support of it.

I was thinking it was like being tied up, and then something takes a massive sharp and jagged spoon and stabs a hole into your chest. then over the course of many weeks or months they slowly scoop out and lacerate the inside of your body, slowly scooping away until they create a concave cavity within you, but you don't die after all this time, and the pain doesn't abate. At the end of it you're let go, but completely hollow and agonized inside.

 

[The anhedonic one]

No, committing suicide over a girl isn't stupid. The pain of unrequited love is such a soul-crushing and heartbreaking thing that is impossible to put into words.
I have many reasons to CTB, and this is one of them.
So sorry you are going through this.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

That's a good way to put it, really captures the feeling you get when you first start to realize what was once a stable fixture of support and comfort in your life has vanished, and all the beautiful memories and things you built and were so exited to build on this pillar are just, crumbling without the support of it.

I was thinking it was like being tied up, and then something takes a massive sharp and jagged spoon and stabs a hole into your chest. then over the course of many weeks or months they slowly scoop out and lacerate the inside of your body, slowly scooping away until they create a concave cavity within you, but you don't die after all this time, and the pain doesn't abate. At the end of it you're let go, but completely hollow and agonized inside.

so violently poetically beautiful... I think we are both capturing that there is a very physical visceral feeling to it that fucks you up. so it's super understandable @EndJstifiesTheMeans how you would wind up feeling how you're feeling now. especially with all the other shit you've had to endure

 

[Kikoo]

I really love her..
I got really depressed when i start to talk with her
Because i feelt that im not enough for her, no job/money,no friend, abusive jobless parents, still virgin, almost all my life as hikikomori and quited school because bullism and parents problems,
i started to have constantly suicide thought and take less self care of myself didnt even have the strenght to go out of my bed, im not even funny.. silent all time

I felt that "how can i explain to her all of this?"
If not enough i started to be hated by her because she realized that im jealous of her..
She now have a boyfriend and i cant handle the idea that she is having sex and fun moments with him

Its almost a year now.. and im still thinking about her h24 even cry

What do you think about suicide for a girl? is your same reason?

Omg. Same. Well, almost. We are still together, but he wants me to move out since 4 months, and then he's going to break up. I also had shitty past. Very shitty, very similar. I just can't live this way, without him, with all the difficulties. I can't fucking think of him finding someone else, it gives me actual, physical pain. I want to be loved by him again.. I want to make him happy.. I have 2 months left. If I won't manage to change his mind, and it's very likely to not happen, I'm just CTBing. And it's all my fucking fault, because I took him for granted.

 

[nopeaceofmind]

2 years in the same boat on top of other things. Id share my story but its a bit lengthy. My depression both took her away and every friend I had. Even now I still struggle to forgive myself despite my efforts to self improve.

 

[MrDarkness]

The love of my life tossed me away like trash, I was going to commit ctb as I felt I had no honour due to it, their are plenty of people out there, trust me, if someone like Danny devito can be in a marriage or a relationship anyone can, I hope your able to find someone, and honestly being virgin isn't that big of a deal, I've heard plenty of people say sex is overrated just me tho, I hope life turns around

 

[90starve]

i think that this is a completely valid and justified reason to want to end your life - heartbreak can be so devastating. thinking of you <3

 

[AntiAll]

I really love her..
I got really depressed when i start to talk with her
Because i feelt that im not enough for her, no job/money,no friend, abusive jobless parents, still virgin, almost all my life as hikikomori and quited school because bullism and parents problems,
i started to have constantly suicide thought and take less self care of myself didnt even have the strenght to go out of my bed, im not even funny.. silent all time

I felt that "how can i explain to her all of this?"
If not enough i started to be hated by her because she realized that im jealous of her..
She now have a boyfriend and i cant handle the idea that she is having sex and fun moments with him

Its almost a year now.. and im still thinking about her h24 even cry

What do you think about suicide for a girl? is your same reason?

Nah..Suicide without reason would be enough.. Suicide is the best solution when Life is the problem.. Not the events of life.. So I would support you although my Opinion would be Extreme

 

[alrondlondo]

Как уже было сказано здесь, обычно бывает так, что потеря близкого человека становится последней каплей уже накопившихся проблем. Лично я бы не стал так поступать из-за другого человека. Как сказал мой друг: "Я лучше ее убью, чем себя"))
Я начинаю его ненавидеть, человека, который меня бросил, потом через некоторое время остываю и принимаю. Никто не стоит твоей смерти, кем бы он ни был. Все люди временны, не стоит на них полагаться.

 

[Kikoo]

Honestly being virgin isn't that big of a deal, I've heard plenty of people say sex is overrated just me tho, I hope life turns around

It's the greatest feeling in the world to me, emotionally. You are connected. You can't get enough of each other. It's only you and them. It feels amazing. But both parties have to truly love each other to make it work. I so miss this kind of sex. Not everyone sees it that way, though.

 

[MrDarkness]

It's the greatest feeling in the world to me, emotionally. You are connected. You can't get enough of each other. It's only you and them. It feels amazing. But both parties have to truly love each other to make it work. I so miss this kind of sex. Not everyone sees it that way, though.

I wouldn't know Lmao, I ain't that big believer of love tbh

 

[Praestat_Mori]

As well as I can understand you to think of CTB because of a girl and love can be truely heartbreaking I don't think that suicide is the way togo in this case. It's imply not worth to kill yourself for someone who doesn't care about you anyway! I really hope you can find peace and please don't rush any decisions about CTB for a girl that doesn't care about you. I wish you all the best.

 

[Kikoo]

As well as I can understand you to think of CTB because of a girl and love can be truely heartbreaking I don't think that suicide is the way togo in this case. It's imply not worth to kill yourself for someone who doesn't care about you anyway! I really hope you can find peace and please don't rush any decisions about CTB for a girl that doesn't care about you. I wish you all the best.

I think it's not about whether they care or not, but about the unbearable pain of the gigantic loss. And you can't do shit about it. And it can take years.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I think it's not about whether they care or not, but about the unbearable pain of the gigantic loss. And you can't do shit about it. And it can take years.

Yes I can understand this point of view as well. When it comes to "love" humans may react irrational and that is well known. I'm really sorry OP is trapped in such a difficult and awful position with seemingly no other way out. I really wish I could help.

 

[hellispink]

Leaving is a personal decision. No one can tell u if its right or not. You are the one in pain and in the anguish , no one else . Whatever you feel is valid. Only listen to your heart whatever it desires. Just try to think with a cold head about everything and analyze other parts of your life to see if mayb there's something worth it for you. Just be secure about your decisions 100%

 

[chillmungo]

It sounds like you're suicidal for all of the other reasons you mentioned and the girl just highlights everything else that is wrong. The fact that there is someone out there who you really like also proves that there must be more people out there like her. It's just a question of whether you can win the battle against your other problems or if it's too late.

 

[NoReasonToLive2023]

No. Suicide is never stupid, nor cowardly.

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

No, you cannot measure emotional hurt and invalidating any of it with such little information is a jump to conclusions in my opinion. I have experienced the same and it's become a large part of my identity and reason for CTBing.

I think it's your life and it's yours to do what you want with it. It would also be hypocritical of me saying that killing yourself over a relationship is stupid.

 

[FuneralCry]

To believe that suicide even needs a reason in the first place would be something completely absurd. Existence has no value, it's completely pointless and meaningless. Death will happen eventually whether there is a reason behind it or not, we are just slowly dying, waiting for death and we are only destined for nothing. And none of us are obligated to delay our inevitable fate.

 

[huzzahhue56]

its not irrational, it makes sense someone would find it hard to cope at losing something they have an attachment to if they don't have anyone else or they feel alone

Yes I can understand this point of view as well. When it comes to "love" humans may react irrational and that is well known. I'm really sorry OP is trapped in such a difficult and awful position with seemingly no other way out. I really wish I could help

 

[Themogger]

A little bit