silent wraith
Outsider facing society
- Mar 28, 2026
- 17
For as long as I remember my father is a chronically angry man. When I was little he always yelled - although not as much as lately. When I was very little we used to pick flowers together as my mom was busy with school. When I started going to elementary around 7-8 he would scream at me during homeworks and I would cry a lot because I was slower than others , he made me feel stupid.
When I was a teen everything started to get worse , he would be coming home angry - yelling right away the first thing when he got home. As of now - I am 20 and he has a different job now , I understand that he has been having problems with physical pain lately but I feel like it is completly unrelated to his anger. He was always like this it just might be fueling it more...He is terrible always was - since I am the youngest of the family he would scream at everyone demanding who "did it" if something got lost or broken and so on and sometimes it was HIS fault. And I swear I wasn't responsible most of the times and yet I was his target of his outbursts a lot... That continues on , he makes me feel misarable and stupid no matter how much he tries to be a good father. Loud music in kitchen ? My heart is racing - as I know he is cooking - him cooking = yelling out of frustration that he doesn't have time. My mom even tells him to not cook but he is like "No I can do it honey" and then later I am witnessing his angry aura. I hate coming home when mom is not home first because whenever I come home and he's around I feel on the edge. I used to come home around when mom gets home from work a few years back but I stopped doing that as he is a helicopter parent. I don't know what to do , I come home from school where I am lonely and miserable and I come home to a battlefield or a tention as I never know when he will start yelling again. Not only that he doesn't even respect when I want to be in my room alone , he just comes in and yells. Sometimes that happens even if we are not arguing , he comes to check on me what I am doing , starts asking me how was school like a "good father" and then ? He finds a thing to yell about. Damn I am so tired , are my mental health issues not allready enough ? Do you guys have any tips ?
When I was a teen everything started to get worse , he would be coming home angry - yelling right away the first thing when he got home. As of now - I am 20 and he has a different job now , I understand that he has been having problems with physical pain lately but I feel like it is completly unrelated to his anger. He was always like this it just might be fueling it more...He is terrible always was - since I am the youngest of the family he would scream at everyone demanding who "did it" if something got lost or broken and so on and sometimes it was HIS fault. And I swear I wasn't responsible most of the times and yet I was his target of his outbursts a lot... That continues on , he makes me feel misarable and stupid no matter how much he tries to be a good father. Loud music in kitchen ? My heart is racing - as I know he is cooking - him cooking = yelling out of frustration that he doesn't have time. My mom even tells him to not cook but he is like "No I can do it honey" and then later I am witnessing his angry aura. I hate coming home when mom is not home first because whenever I come home and he's around I feel on the edge. I used to come home around when mom gets home from work a few years back but I stopped doing that as he is a helicopter parent. I don't know what to do , I come home from school where I am lonely and miserable and I come home to a battlefield or a tention as I never know when he will start yelling again. Not only that he doesn't even respect when I want to be in my room alone , he just comes in and yells. Sometimes that happens even if we are not arguing , he comes to check on me what I am doing , starts asking me how was school like a "good father" and then ? He finds a thing to yell about. Damn I am so tired , are my mental health issues not allready enough ? Do you guys have any tips ?
