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Ludath

Ludath

All the help in the world couldn’t save me
Sep 7, 2026
54
Me, too. Thats another interesting aspect of it. It gives a sense of familiarity and safety, which we all crave.
Lately I rewatched the entire Star Wars content that exists and now that I am basically done with that I feel kind of lost and don't know what to watch anymore.
I know the exact feeling. I get it every time i finish a series.
 
Somewhat Suicidal

Somewhat Suicidal

surviving in anhedonia =/= living
Aug 26, 2026
215
I know the exact feeling. I get it every time i finish a series.
Time to rewatch some Andor a 2nd time (for the 5th time in total or so) then until I fall asleep xD
 
lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

Слёзы на щеках
Jun 11, 2026
645
That's it, yeah. I'm just too weak, lazy, demotivated for anything else that requires actual effort from my end.
I even felt empty the last time I was windsurfing, just like fumbling with all the equipment in order to have just an okay time (as opposed to a good time) on the water was another useless chore to tend to. It works to escape my thoughts while I am out there mostly, but the effort around it is just exhausting and the exposure to normal happy people at beaches etc. is kind of torturing, too. (30 mins ago I was even annoyed and torn by my neighbours and their guests having a good time, it just felt shit to me).
With watching series it's also a great way to escape my own thoughts and feelings for a while, while not needing any effort and without feeling tortured by such things as mentioned above to do so.
I get you, everything starts to feel like a chore and becomes exhausting, even though you once enjoyed it and didn't mind doing the prep or whatever you needed to do. Same thing happened to me with skiing, just can't do it anymore, it's too exhausting and I don't get much out of it. It sucks sm, it's like having all joy taken from you and sometimes it seems like I can't ever get it back. I still force myself to work out and some other stuff as well, but I don't enjoy it
Time to rewatch some Andor a 2nd time (for the 5th time in total or so) then until I fall asleep xD
Andor is so good
 
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MissAbyss

MissAbyss

void-certified.
Jul 20, 2025
656
I've mainly been gaming lately.

Angry Gamer GIF by A1 eSports
 
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Somewhat Suicidal

Somewhat Suicidal

surviving in anhedonia =/= living
Aug 26, 2026
215
I get you, everything starts to feel like a chore and becomes exhausting, even though you once enjoyed it and didn't mind doing the prep or whatever you needed to do. Same thing happened to me with skiing, just can't do it anymore, it's too exhausting and I don't get much out of it. It sucks sm, it's like having all joy taken from you and sometimes it seems like I can't ever get it back. I still force myself to work out and some other stuff as well, but I don't enjoy it
Well I still enjoy it, but it feels worthless when the rest of my life is so empty of any joy and meaning. But the only reason I still did it the last few times was my dad pretty much dragging me with him and organising everything, as I wouldn't have had the strength to do any of that myself.

Andor is so good
Yes!

I've mainly been gaming lately.

Angry Gamer GIF by A1 eSports
Another thing I used to enjoy that feels just empty to me now.
 
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meiherasayuri

meiherasayuri

꒰ྀི১ ໒꒱ིྀ
Nov 27, 2025
148
I used to draw, but it doesn't satisfy me like it used to,Usually when I develop an interest, I dream of being intense about it, but then I lose interest in it
 
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BunBun

BunBun

An anxious wreck
Sep 7, 2026
32
Reading is the major hobby I use to distract myself. I really like slow paced western books, and sometimes I really like to read choose your own adventure books for nostalgia reasons.
 

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