Discussion Hi everyone. New to the forum, not to the ideation <3

[dissident]

First of all i just want to extend my gratitude to this community, as although I am newly registered i am not new to the site. It's a slither less lonely knowing there are people that i can have earnest conversations with about our plans, ask to the point questions and not be judged. So for that, i truly thank you all

First off I struggle considerably with social contact over the internet (and in person but that's neither here nor there) so I may not always be able to answer properly or in a timely manner. I literally started to panic when i saw it being discussed that i would need to get my post count up to a certain amount before i can have direct contact with any users - which is partially why i am creating this thread. How does this work? How many posts or comments must i have made? Or how active must I be before i can communicate on a one to one basis out of the public eye of the main message boards?

I know this is a 'safe' space but safe is subjective and what is 'safe' for one person isn't necessarily safe for another.

I have just caught up with the PPH 2022 edition this past week after not reading it since the 2020 edition and am quite shocked at just how much has changed in my country (and others) in regards to how many preferred methods have been heavily restricted in this post-covid, post-brexit climate (I live in England). I also know that the press is not on our side with this subject and any press is bad press, and a lot of press has shone a very strong light on EXIT, PPH and other advocating bodies that openly share methodology. It's kind of ironic that we are racing the tide of information watching many methods getting harder & harder to achieve.

I have been ready to CTB for a long time and have put my time in over many years to make sure i know it's what i want and that it will be as painless and peaceful as possible. After reading the latest PPH and deciding on my top methods i'm left with so many tabs open on multiple browsers and just getting so f*cking frustrated because of how stone walled I currently am. And as many of you know having your heart set on this way or that way just to find a legislation change means going through them all again is heart breaking to say the least.

Anyway sorry, I realised this has turned into me just venting now and that was not my intention.

I'm hoping that i am able to feel comfortable enough to formulate my quite specific questions after this and hear some of the wisdom of this community.

I meet you all here with love, compassion & empathy

Warm Wishes,

Dissident

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe that you only have to make a few more comments in threads before you can send private messages, eventually the option will show up to be able to do such a thing. But of course it certainly can be so incredibly frustrating how this society that we exist in makes it purposely so difficult for us to find ways to die, we really shouldn't have to suffer so much to find ways to leave, a peaceful exit from this cruel world is what we really deserve the option of after so unfairly being forced to exist here in the first place. I hope that you eventually find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[Wannagonow]

Welcome! I'm hoping you will be comfortable on this forum. It is generally a supportive environment. I understand what you're saying about how feeling safe means different things to different people.

It took me a little bit to finally get brave and post. Not because of others here- but due to my lack of experience being a contributing member of a group like this. If you feel at all uncomfortable, my suggestion is to take a break for a day or two. That helps me.

Glad you're here. I hope you find this group supportive and helpful to you. I hope we see each other again on the different threads.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Welcome to the forum. I'm sorry life has brought you here. I'm not sure about the exact number of posts you need to PM someone but the 'offtopic' 'games' section is a good way to up your post numbers if you need to do so quickly.

I hope you can find some comfort here. I find this place to be a very supportive environment. I struggle in real life but I really enjoy interacting with people here.

 

[dissident]

Thank you all for your kind & informative responses, I really appreciate the warm welcoming from you all

I'm unsure where to start as a lot of the questions I have are pretty specific. I am hoping to find a thread that sheds some light on Amitriptyline and the revised D-DMA or DDMAPh Protocols. I have a reasonable (yet patchy) knowledge of pharmacology but I would like to fill in some gaps and understand better which items from the these protocols can be either adapted or left out.

I am aware that the Amitriptyline method requires you to take the same quantity as the above protocols, it can just take a very long time for heart failure - up to 24 hours. Albeit it you would be unconscious, but still too much risk of being found too soon. From what i understand the majority of the components in these protocols are to speed up the mechanism of action (Morphine, Phenobarbital, Diazepam). However I believe Digoxin is specifically added to trigger a cardiac switch, which I know is technically speeding up the end result but directly mainly interacting with Amitriptyline to create the switch.

Getting to the point - Does anyone know if i was to add Digoxin as well as 1000mg of Diazepam into the Amitriptyline method that this would improve the odds and potentially speed up the mechanism of action at all? I can get everything i need apart from the Phenobarbital & the HUGE amount of Morphine needed so I am leaning towards Amitriptyline, but I'm aware that if you are found before your heart has stopped and treated you are very likely to have heavy brain damage - f*ck that! I also have a heavy tolerance to prescription opiates as well so the Morphine is a bit sketchy.. Although I would chuck some sort of opiates in for the Anxiolytic properties.

TBH I am SO pissed that i can't source SN (as i'm sure many others are) as that is the method I had chosen and all of this is needlessly complicated and also risky to say the very least. I have a huge tolerance to Pharmaceuticals from years of abuse/failed attempts and have been told multiple times that i shouldn't of survived taking the quantities I have so understandably 'choosing' this method scares the absolute shit out of me. My biggest fear is failing and being locked inside a broken brain & body, I'm diabetic and have a huge supply of insulin and the main reason I would never choose that to CTB is because of the exact same risk!

Apologies for the incoherent ramblings but thank you for providing a place within which i can openly ask these things

Welcome to the forum. I'm sorry life has brought you here. I'm not sure about the exact number of posts you need to PM someone but the 'offtopic' 'games' section is a good way to up your post numbers if you need to do so quickly.

I hope you can find some comfort here. I find this place to be a very supportive environment. I struggle in real life but I really enjoy interacting with people here.

Thank you for the tip on the games section btw, great help

EDIT: Upon further reading i am unsure if digoxin and amitriptyline do come together to create the cardiac switch. Looking at drug interaction on webMD shows no interaction with these two. If someone could provide clarity on this would be super helpful.

 

[Ultracheese]

Welcome to the forum! I have no advice on the PPH front, but I hope that you're able to learn a lot here and feel comfortable expressing yourself.

 

[dissident]

SN pro-cured, excuse the pun... first time i've felt relieved for so long, let alone attempted a joke!

No more combing through bullshit pharmacological jargon till my eyes bleed.

Sending everyone love & light this weekend, truly

 

[CTB Dream]

Welcom forum unfortunate method hard do cuz cruel outer make method get hard, hope here ok peace

 

[dissident]

Welcom forum unfortunate method hard do cuz cruel outer make method get hard, hope here ok peace

Thank you for the welcome. Sending lots of love & light your way