no.one
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- Oct 1, 2024
- 31
So I was on the SN bus, but with how things have been going in the US, and also with DMC, I'm unsure that method will be attainable. Maybe once everything calms down.... but I am not sure I'll be here when it does. My second method was going to be a gunshot. I currently do not own a gun, but I can obtain one. If not by purchase, I can visit my family, who have plenty. I've measured and read where exactly you should aim to hit the important parts. I just don't really want to leave that mess for anyone to clean up. Not my family, the rescue squad, or the maids/cleaners. I've always been a person who tries to take up as little space as possible. So leaving behind that kind of mess makes me feel bad. If i could, im sure my spirit would be trying to clean it up before anyone got there!
That's besides the point; the other 2 options were partial hanging and the amitriptyline route. I am prescribed it, and because I struggle with being consistent with my meds, I have hoarded a decent amount. I believe I still have 1 more refill also. Because I've just moved to a new state and finally got approved for their Medicaid, I can obtain more when I get a doctor if necessary. I have 2 different brands of antiemetics.
I know pills are unreliable. I am aware that it isn't 100%—even the PPH 2025 says its 62% effective. I'd rather swallow a drink out of my 4 options. Although I enjoy being choked in bed (haha), I think I will panic last minute during the partial hanging, and i am afraid my SI will kick in with the gun and I may miss my target.
If anyone is familiar with medication, specifically Amitriptyline- please DM me!
That's besides the point; the other 2 options were partial hanging and the amitriptyline route. I am prescribed it, and because I struggle with being consistent with my meds, I have hoarded a decent amount. I believe I still have 1 more refill also. Because I've just moved to a new state and finally got approved for their Medicaid, I can obtain more when I get a doctor if necessary. I have 2 different brands of antiemetics.
I know pills are unreliable. I am aware that it isn't 100%—even the PPH 2025 says its 62% effective. I'd rather swallow a drink out of my 4 options. Although I enjoy being choked in bed (haha), I think I will panic last minute during the partial hanging, and i am afraid my SI will kick in with the gun and I may miss my target.
If anyone is familiar with medication, specifically Amitriptyline- please DM me!
