Olivie_420
King of self-sabotage 🥲
- Mar 13, 2024
- 35
Its been almost a week since I turned 19 and I'm back. It wasn't very good, even the people I invited had me stressing the whole time. The whole time I was dragged around, and used for food and smokes. I don't have at least any picture from the day with my group, and there was 15 ppl. I was overstimulated (overwhelmed, what you want to call it. I am a diagnosed autistic.) and there was about 3 people throughout the day that actually managed to make my day better, and follow the birthday rules (which i was asked why it was created and they were common sense rules. But everyone else broke the 3 rules.)
Today, I went out with some friends. We got food, went to the gym, and then one of my guy friends took me home. It was good and I try to be outside every week at least once but the fear of going out and the dread I feel whenever I see ANYONE just keeps coming back.
I'm sorry, idk if this is a vent or rant or wtf anymore
I'm honestly bored, and I don't know what to do. Its past midnight, and I'm just sitting in me and my boyfriend's room smoking the devil's lettuce.
-Olivie out
Today, I went out with some friends. We got food, went to the gym, and then one of my guy friends took me home. It was good and I try to be outside every week at least once but the fear of going out and the dread I feel whenever I see ANYONE just keeps coming back.
I'm sorry, idk if this is a vent or rant or wtf anymore
I'm honestly bored, and I don't know what to do. Its past midnight, and I'm just sitting in me and my boyfriend's room smoking the devil's lettuce.
-Olivie out
