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Wistfully forlorn
Aug 27, 2025
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Hi, I hope you are doing ok; I planned to leave without ever writing on here but alas: here I am, haha..! There's no point to me even saying anything, the story of my life doesn't matter, it doesn't need to be understood - what transpires is that I'm a faceless, ageless and nameless person. I guess all I wanted to say is that I'm gonna fall behind a cushion of flowers and this time I won't have to be afraid of surviving; Really I've been wondering how long it would take my body to decompose and be unrecognisable. Ok that's all, love, always.

P.S. I have already folded, if anyone reads this - It's some hours before darkness, so.. I'm sorry if I make you feel bad enough to reply.
 
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Hi and welcome, unfortunately.

This
Please just convince me to do it..
is against forum rules; this isn't the place for that. You have another few hours to edit the post which recommending doing, otherwise it may be reported.
Hope this place helps you in other ways.
 
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Wistfully forlorn
Aug 27, 2025
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Hi and welcome, unfortunately.

This

is against forum rules; this isn't the place for that. You have another few hours to edit the post which recommending doing, otherwise it may be reported.
Hope this place helps you in other ways.
I'm sorry, I don't need encouragement.
 
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May 6, 2024
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everyone has a story, if you wouldn't mind sharing some of it with us.
is your method jumping? are you sure it will guarantee ctb?
 
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Illuminated
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I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering đź«‚:heart:
 
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Wistfully forlorn
Aug 27, 2025
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everyone has a story, if you wouldn't mind sharing some of it with us.
is your method jumping? are you sure it will guarantee ctb?
Yes to both, I'm still afraid it won't - I can't bear the consequences, it's all too complicated; I could probably explain. The place is the old medieval walls, it's the highest point around the walls: it narrows down to a balcony with a catwalk that leads to an elevator attached to it, I thought of it last around five years ago as it's where my last in-person relationship officially ended. I'm a short person but the railings and short enough that I can get over, the fall itself is probably twenty meters - below is only bushes. I have a secondary spot where I know nobody would find me. Apart from that I was thinking of having a swim in the sea. I don't think my story is one worth listening to, either way I could try.. It's hard to trust but I guess I have nothing to lose here amongst you; I keep losing myself rambling about everything in my head, I can't..
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering đź«‚:heart:
Thank you.. I don't say it often openly but I mean it, I was trying to write more but I'm sorry I can't find the strenght.. I wish you too all the good in the world.
 
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i think 20m gives approx 50% chance of surviving. bushes may also increase chances.
 

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