Surek
Peaceful
- Aug 26, 2025
- 57
So, I'm worried about how my body will be found. I'm planning to do my CTB with SN, but I doubt that will make it any less "shocking" when they find it.
I'm afraid my younger sister will be the one to find it first. I mean, I'm worried about any of my family finding it, but I'm slightly more concerned about my sister, since I wouldn't want that to be burned into her memory. She's only 9.
Yeah, I could do something like a scheduled text message that gets sent some time after the CTB, but for some reason, that feels too risky to me.
Maybe I should raise some alarm? Lock the door with all the locks (I'm the only one with a full set of keys), close all the windows (so no one can get in through them). My mother knows about one of my failed attempts, and during some fights with her, I've yelled that I'd do the CTB (it was always in the heat of the moment, without any specifics).
I think she'll figure out what happened when she can't get into the apartment...
Another option is to lock myself in the utility room – I have the keys for that, too. It's on the ground floor, and it would be a decent place to do the CTB.
The only thing is, it's much riskier than doing it in my room, since strangers might hear my "sounds.". And most likely, when my family notices I'm "missing," the first thing they'll do is come here to check the camera footage.
I guess I'll save that option for if I decide to do it on impulse.
Let me know what you think about this. Thanks.
(Written using a translator)
I'm afraid my younger sister will be the one to find it first. I mean, I'm worried about any of my family finding it, but I'm slightly more concerned about my sister, since I wouldn't want that to be burned into her memory. She's only 9.
Yeah, I could do something like a scheduled text message that gets sent some time after the CTB, but for some reason, that feels too risky to me.
Maybe I should raise some alarm? Lock the door with all the locks (I'm the only one with a full set of keys), close all the windows (so no one can get in through them). My mother knows about one of my failed attempts, and during some fights with her, I've yelled that I'd do the CTB (it was always in the heat of the moment, without any specifics).
I think she'll figure out what happened when she can't get into the apartment...
Another option is to lock myself in the utility room – I have the keys for that, too. It's on the ground floor, and it would be a decent place to do the CTB.
The only thing is, it's much riskier than doing it in my room, since strangers might hear my "sounds.". And most likely, when my family notices I'm "missing," the first thing they'll do is come here to check the camera footage.
I guess I'll save that option for if I decide to do it on impulse.
Let me know what you think about this. Thanks.
(Written using a translator)
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