I almost died unintentionally during summer from a mix of benzos, heroin and alcohol.
Then I decided to get sober to "fix" my life and now have zero access to heroin. The only way I could see myself obtaining it would be to go on the streets and talk to junkies/homeless people, which I'd rather not because It's rude.
But yes. OD'ing from heroin is a dream to me and looking back, I wish I did just die during summer.
I wish I had H right now... it takes away the pain like nothing else. I've been sober for 6 months but I don't feel happier without drugs at all.
I feel you 100%. I got sober in September in hopes my ex would take me back (he didn't). Went through severe withdrawals from benzo's and H.
I don't feel any happier. I hate being sober. I hate this so much.
I have access to benzo's again but I just want some god damn heroin. I just want to feel that warm comfort again.