Venting Help

[BBY]

I keep trying to ctb but I can't seem to get it right. These past few nights it just didn't go they way I want to. The tape gets caught up on itself or the cornbags will move around and no longer press on my artery. I just want to leave. The back of my neck already hurts with how often I had to rip the tape off it to restart or reposition the bags. I am so upset. I'm not even scared to do it anymore. All I feel is desperation.
(Trying to do the night night method)

 

[FuneralCry]

The night night method sounds risky and unreliable to me, I've read of other people struggling to go through with that method. I certainly wish that it's easier to finally die and I hate how it's so difficult, it's such a hellish world we exist in where we cannot just choose to leave in peace. But anyway it's very much understandable so desperately wishing to be gone, I hope you eventually find freedom from all the suffering.