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PenPen<3

PenPen<3

transfem mess
Apr 5, 2026
33
I'm planning to CTB soon using sodium nitrite, but I want to make sure that my plan is okay.

I'll start fasting around 6PM
I'll take ab 50mg of olanzapine at 11PM
I'll mix 20g of SN with 50-100mL of water (I weight about 120lb or 54kg)
I plan to use mouthwash or an ice cube to numb my taste buds if that taste of the SN drink is really bad and then drink it.


After that nobody should find me until morning. I know there are other pills that are recommended but is this enough? It's also important to mention that I have trouble swallowing certain medicines because of the taste, and I'm worried my anxiety disorder will make me more likely to puke. Is there anything I should make sure to add to this, or is it enough?
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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I'll mix 20g of SN with 50-100mL of water (I weight about 120kg)
Afaik the PPH (and also the SN Bible) suggest 35g if your weight is >100kg
 
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tooafraidtodiez

Will CTB before my favourite show ends
Apr 29, 2026
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I'm planning to CTB soon using sodium nitrite, but I want to make sure that my plan is okay.

I'll start fasting around 6PM
I'll take ab 50mg of olanzapine at 11PM
I'll mix 20g of SN with 50-100mL of water (I weight about 120lb or 54kg)
I plan to use mouthwash or an ice cube to numb my taste buds if that taste of the SN drink is really bad and then drink it.


After that nobody should find me until morning. I know there are other pills that are recommended but is this enough? It's also important to mention that I have trouble swallowing certain medicines because of the taste, and I'm worried my anxiety disorder will make me more likely to puke. Is there anything I should make sure to add to this, or is it enough?
Read the PPeH and Stan guide about SN on the suicide resource thread. Add antacid take maximum dose to your protocol
 
PenPen<3

PenPen<3

transfem mess
Apr 5, 2026
33
Read the PPeH and Stan guide about SN on the suicide resource thread. Add antacid take maximum dose to your protocol
Okay, I'll see if I have any antacids around the house otherwise I'll check the pharmacy.
 

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