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usernametaken

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Apr 10, 2023
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I have done countless hours of research and probably already "know" the answer to this but I am in the middle of a rock and a hard place. Only thing keeping me alive is my new puppy. Poor thing I don't want to break his heart.

I have the SN and that's all I have. It wasn't until recently that I saw I need meto which I found on a pet pharm but for 55$ and a week of shipping. I am not working and have no $ it was by pure luck I was able to get the SN off a family member's card without them asking questions.

They will have $ on Friday so if it is absolutely necessary I guess I can try to get the AE. I am on a time frame as well and need to make this decision to CTB by the start of May.

And no, things won't get better unless x, y and z were to happen so that's another animal.

I absolutely CANNOT afford to fail and go through a psych intervention. If I use the SN alone even after vomiting, I have plenty to drink after to make up for the loss. I am just afraid. I read about this all the time. The main pattern seems to be people getting found too early.

I don't live alone but it is a large home and I have my own separate area in the back. My mother is elderly and isn't working with a full deck. I could probably go unnoticed for 6 or more hours.


What is the best advice? The fasting I can definitely do… I only have water here and I don't take any medication other than over the counter for allergies, heartburn (just ran out) and headaches.
 

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