Heart failure

[karmaisabitch]

So teen died today due to heart failure from " lack of sleeping" I'm not encouraging anyone to do that, but I will try that. I being hitting my heart, my head and I really have a very severe strange headache since 3 days ago.. can't find resources- I'm gonna hurt myself until my body gets tired and die. Don't tell me it won't work because it will. I'm sorry your resources here is useless. When providing resources you have to include what we can buy not what we can't possibly buy. You guys keep telling people that OD is not possible in sleeping pills or other strong medications that's not true.. people die daily od from their own meds. Fentanyl is illegal so I'll think about what I can buy legally… I'm planning to be gone by the end of this month. I already donated half of my clothes today, I paid my debt and I'm ready.. sn is illegal too even if I have resources I can't risk getting caught. I will hurt my family but they live in different state so we are not really attached so I have none here but me and my son memories

 

[willitpass]

I know it's frustrating to hear that things won't work, and I'm sorry you're struggling so much. But chronic sleep deprivation takes years, most likely decades. Acute sleep deprivation is simply impossible to induce on yourself. To die of heart failure from sleep deprivation alone he must have had an underlying condition. Hitting yourself in the chest also won't do anything, you have bones there for that exact reason.

I won't tell you not to hurt yourself to death, as that would be incredibly hypocritical of me as I'm currently doing the exact same thing, but I'll warn you that severe, lethal self harm is slow as all hell and makes life so much worse than it already was. I'm in constant physical pain, I can't even function in basic tasks, I keep forgetting basic information, I'm always nauseous, I'm always dizzy, my chest is in crushing pain. I'm sorry you're suffering so much that you're willing to resort to it. It's an awful place to be in.

 

[karmaisabitch]

I don't know what else to do. I can't just live everyday watching the kids who hurt my son to death and do nothing. I'm not a criminal so I can't hurt them and the system is very slow it will take years for the judge to actually finish the case. I can't afford hiring a very expensive attorney. The only think I can do it's to die even if it's slowly.. I'm tired I really don't deserve to live with this pain

 

[willitpass]

I don't know what else to do. I can't just live everyday watching the kids who hurt my son to death and do nothing. I'm not a criminal so I can't hurt them and the system is very slow it will take years for the judge to actually finish the case. I can't afford hiring a very expensive attorney. The only think I can do it's to die even if it's slowly.. I'm tired I really don't deserve to live with this pain

I cannot even imagine what you're going through. It sounds unimaginable. I'm sorry you're suffering so much. It truly isn't fair. I just would hate for you to suffer any more trying to die by self harm. I hope you find peace somehow. It's awful what the world has done to you and your family, I'm so sorry.

 

[Roseate]

They are right when the OD isn't reliable. I've tried that many times and the risks of staying alive and being addicted is not worth it cuz that's more unnecessary pain.

 

[karmaisabitch]

I cannot even imagine what you're going through. It sounds unimaginable. I'm sorry you're suffering so much. It truly isn't fair. I just would hate for you to suffer any more trying to die by self harm. I hope you find peace somehow. It's awful what the world has done to you and your family, I'm so sorry.

Thank you so much, my friend!

They are right when the OD isn't reliable. I've tried that many times and the risks of staying alive and being addicted is not worth it cuz that's more unnecessary pain.

What did you take that didn't work? Only If you are comfortable to answer…

 

[Roseate]

Thank you so much, my friend!

What did you take that didn't work? Only If you are comfortable to answer…

In my defense I wasn't going to take any opiates cuz they all cause addiction and I didn't want to survive that just to have to fight an addiction on my own. Life is already hard enough didn't want to add unnecessary stress. I feel like that matters in terms of OD.

 

[karmaisabitch]

In my defense I wasn't going to take any opiates cuz they all cause addiction and I didn't want to survive that just to have to fight an addiction on my own. Life is already hard enough didn't want to add unnecessary stress. I feel like that matters in terms of OD.

I agree with you! Thank you