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Nihilisticstatic

Nihilisticstatic

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Aug 6, 2023
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Ive been having the same migraine attack since Wednesday in pm (its been ~68 hours).
Thursday, my head hurt quite a bit but it was still bearable (6.5/10), the main issue is the hallucinations I started having. On Thursday, on my way home due to the pain, I started hearing whisperings and machine noises as clear as if they were in my ear or right next to it. The sounds were accompanied by distortions in my view, the kind I see when I dream or Im high on psychedelics: things mix and match then go back to normal, I see patterns and lines a bit randomly. I arrived shortly after, took a quick meal and a couple quetiapine-melatonin and went to sleep around 7pm. Im not sure what caused this and they didnt last longer than 30 minutes so I wasnt too worried.

I woke up on Friday with an even worse head pain (8/10), my head was spinning, I had such a hard time walking. I stayed home all day, in my room, with the lights closed and in silence. The pain dropped to 7/10. I had to go outside and the pain spiked back to 8/10. I saw a pharmacist, he gave me codeine pills and I later saw a doctor who gave me triptans (sumatriptan). Codeine helped, dropping the pain back to 7/10. I stayed on them most of the day until the triptans were ready at the pharmacy. Once I got them, I took my dose and laid in bed with my eyes closed for maybe 1h, I couldn't sleep and it was just 8pm. I could hear a heavy machine noise again, this time in my room and it was loud. I opened my eyes to look around, still under shock. There was a girl's voice talking, loud enough to be understood but the words didn't seem to make sense. I got an intense urge to ctb, I didnt have anything on hand luckily. There wasnt any visuals this time and the voice was gone after a few minutes. I went to sleep not too long after that, unsure if the triptan worked for my migraine.
This morning I woke up with the same damned migraine. 7/10 still. Hurts but bearable yk. I took my morning meds, went to clean my face in the bathroom, drank a glass of water, etc. Then, I went back to bed and my headache spiked to 9/10 for a like 10 seconds. It went back down to 8/10 I took the sumatriptan I had left. No effects yet.

I have 4 codeine pills left. 0 triptans left. I need to go to the pharmacy but the light, the sound, the people, theyre all just too much right now. Being on my phone makes the migraine worse but what can I say, my phone takes my mind off the pain at least a bit. The doctor from yesterday said the visuals and sounds were auras but theyre not like the ones Ive had in the past, its always been flashes and vision loss before, this time, it felt more dreamy-psychedelic like. I sometimes hallucinate from lack of sleep but Ive been resting in bed in the past 2 days so Idk. If anyone has any advice or ideas please let me know, Im not sure of what to do and it will have been 72hours soon.
 
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madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
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I've had the same machine sounds idk what this is... Probably vestibular issue. I remember walking around my house trying to find where the sound was coming from. I thought my washing machine was on
 
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Nihilisticstatic

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Aug 6, 2023
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I've had the same machine sounds idk what this is... Probably vestibular issue. I remember walking around my house trying to find where the sound was coming from. I thought my washing machine was on
Did it ever stop after a while?
 
NormallyNeurotic

NormallyNeurotic

Everything is going to be okay â‹… he/him
Nov 21, 2024
930
Have you been to a neurologist? Encephalitis can cause hallucinations and chronic migraines. I have a type pf autoimmune encephalitis but I'm thankfully just more prone to hallucinations when I'm tired and that's it. Friends have it worse, though.
 
NormallyNeurotic

NormallyNeurotic

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Nov 21, 2024
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I havent, not sure how to even get an appointment.
Do you have a primary care doctor? You'd have to ask them for a referral under most insurances. They'd then tell you a good one in the area.
 
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HangMan123

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Nov 13, 2025
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**Disclaimer: I'm not a medical professional**
This sounds like a medical emergency. Like, ER-level emergency. You really need to get this checked out.
It's better to show up and look dumb than to be stuck with otherwise-avoidable damage.
I hope you are okay.
 
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Nihilisticstatic

Nihilisticstatic

Static
Aug 6, 2023
68
Do you have a primary care doctor? You'd have to ask them for a referral under most insurances. They'd then tell you a good one in the area.
I dont have one at the moment, Im in the process of switching to a new one. I have priority access to a clinic for the meantime but Im unsure how long that would take.
 
NormallyNeurotic

NormallyNeurotic

Everything is going to be okay â‹… he/him
Nov 21, 2024
930
I dont have one at the moment, Im in the process of switching to a new one. I have priority access to a clinic for the meantime but Im unsure how long that would take.
Try calling, and tell your symptoms. They might even say it's bad enough to go to the ER or urgent care.
 
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Nihilisticstatic

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Aug 6, 2023
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**Disclaimer: I'm not a medical professional**
This sounds like a medical emergency. Like, ER-level emergency. You really need to get this checked out.
It's better to show up and look dumb than to be stuck with otherwise-avoidable damage.
I hope you are okay.
Try calling, and tell your symptoms. They might even say it's bad enough to go to the ER or urgent care.
ill call the clinic and see what they say, do you think it would be ok if I left out the suicidal ideation and such, id prefer not getting into a mess.
 
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HangMan123

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Nov 13, 2025
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ill call the clinic and see what they say, do you think it would be ok if I left out the suicidal ideation and such, id prefer not getting into a mess.
Yeah it's okay unless you think that that's what's causing it. You could always think of an excuse if it is.
 
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Nihilisticstatic

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Aug 6, 2023
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I ended up taking morphine, did the job. I woke up and the pain was much less present, I haven't had any disturbances today either so thats nice :D
 
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