He makes me want to ctb

[Stormo]

How do I end this stupid fucking situationship im in? He triggered my PTSD so bad the other day and has done frequently. I need this to end but can't fucking do it.

I've been seeing him for over a year now. I know it'll never be a real relationship. He does not care about me and will never love me. Now he's really pushing me to my limits emotionally. He knows I was in an abusive relationship and even sat with me when I made a police report. He came to the station with me. Why does he continue to yell at me and push me?

I want to fucking die. Why does every man hate me and use me? Why can't I leave him? I hate myself for being in this situation. I'm so alone. I just really want it to end.

 

[Saponification]

I can relate to the feeling of knowing something will never work out but you still stay because the alternative is drowning in loneliness. As someone with attachment issues, situationships are horseshit and no one deserves that torture.

 

[TBONTB]

How do I end this stupid fucking situationship im in? He triggered my PTSD so bad the other day and has done frequently. I need this to end but can't fucking do it.

I've been seeing him for over a year now. I know it'll never be a real relationship. He does not care about me and will never love me. Now he's really pushing me to my limits emotionally. He knows I was in an abusive relationship and even sat with me when I made a police report. He came to the station with me. Why does he continue to yell at me and push me?

I want to fucking die. Why does every man hate me and use me? Why can't I leave him? I hate myself for being in this situation. I'm so alone. I just really want it to end.

That sounds miserable.

You asked the question "why can't I just leave him". I think it was kind of rhetorical but in reality, what is keeping you from leaving him

 

[Stormo]

That sounds miserable.

You asked the question "why can't I just leave him". I think it was kind of rhetorical but in reality, what is keeping you from leaving him

Great question!

I have C-PTSD which I feel like I should be treating myself better and recognizing bad signs with this diagnosis. But in reality I feel like it leads me to have more of an intense attachment to people. I have a lot of abandonment trauma.

I also have only 1 friend other than him. I have been trying to meet more people recently as I think I'll be able to cut him off once I have more friends. I just don't want the loneliness of only talking to 1 person (who I feel like I'm bothering them both by messaging anyway).

But also hoping that one day he will want a relationship and will love me. Idk it's stupid but I think this is the real reason people stay in these types of relationships, it's just a hard thing to admit.

 

[numbeyesopen26]

LEAVE! don't reply, don't text. Block. Done. If it's a situationship he won't care

 

[TBONTB]

Great question!

I have C-PTSD which I feel like I should be treating myself better and recognizing bad signs with this diagnosis. But in reality I feel like it leads me to have more of an intense attachment to people. I have a lot of abandonment trauma.

I also have only 1 friend other than him. I have been trying to meet more people recently as I think I'll be able to cut him off once I have more friends. I just don't want the loneliness of only talking to 1 person (who I feel like I'm bothering them both by messaging anyway).

But also hoping that one day he will want a relationship and will love me. Idk it's stupid but I think this is the real reason people stay in these types of relationships, it's just a hard thing to admit.

Sounds tough.

To your last paragraph, I'll bet you already know this guy isn't going to really love you and the relationship won't really get better. He's just not that guy...that's why you wrote the post.

I stayed in a bas relationship for 25 years. My reason was basically inertia...too scary to make the change. It didn't ever get better.

If you have the strength, could you start imagining what it would be like to call that relationship off?

 

[ConstantPain]

Peace

Instead of being afraid to be lonely, can you imagine having peace without him? I know it's easier said than done. Like Mage above, I have been with my husband since 2002 and haven't left yet but need to. Thinking how much more peaceful I would be without him is the main thing keeping me going.
If you want another serious relationship in the future, know that can't happen with this guy who it sounds like he's just stringing you along. You deserve better and I hope you get there

 

[username12345]

How do I end this stupid fucking situationship im in? He triggered my PTSD so bad the other day and has done frequently. I need this to end but can't fucking do it.

I've been seeing him for over a year now. I know it'll never be a real relationship. He does not care about me and will never love me. Now he's really pushing me to my limits emotionally. He knows I was in an abusive relationship and even sat with me when I made a police report. He came to the station with me. Why does he continue to yell at me and push me?

I want to fucking die. Why does every man hate me and use me? Why can't I leave him? I hate myself for being in this situation. I'm so alone. I just really want it to end.

That guy is always yelling at you because he's emotionally abusive. It's not a situationship he is just hurting you and won't let you be happy or realize what he puts you through for years. Try to get away from him if it's even possible

 

[Wolf Girl]

You don't deserve this. You deserve a real relationship where you are treated with respect and love. It's *his* personal failure that makes him treat you like that. It has nothing to do with you. You are lovable.

Get mad, get completely pissed off and indignant on your own behalf and block him.

 

[fedup1982]

It seems like he's getting what he wants? He's created a space that you don't feel comfortable leaving, on purpose, so that you don't leave?

You deserve better, and it's going to need you stepping out of that comfort zone but once you do things will get better.

I'm so sorry you're in this position