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CTB Fella

CTB Fella

Experienced
Dec 15, 2022
268
Freedom:

The thoughts plague my mind.

As the cadence intensifies, the message slides into focus.

Something awaits, on the other side.

I believe it.
Deep within I am assured, it is my destiny.

The key to freedom lie in my hands. It shall course my veins, on a joyride of ecstasy. It will lift me out of the madness, and set me free.

I feel it.

As it beckons me, I weaken.
I welcome it in.

Soon, I shall surrender.


Soon ... I shall be free.
 
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BlueNikky

BlueNikky

Member
Apr 7, 2022
10
Suicide Act
Sometimes I go to the top of flats
And look down at the bottom.
I think that I could be down
Or stay in this crazy world.


It was 5 verses when I wrote it many years ago as a 13/14 year old; I only remember this first verse at present and burnt my book of poems a couple of years ago. It's ironic that I now live almost next to this one remaining high rise and visit frequently; the others being demolished years ago. In no way is it a plan, but I do sometimes consider it a kind of pre-determined life path. The missing verses are no joy either and all end with me jumping. Times have changed and I have more exits available now, yet this Concrete Angel is still there for me 40 years later when other methods are failing!
 

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