Have you ever wanted to live?

[Versailles]

I'm and unsecure with this decission, soimetimes i want to live, and sometimes i want to die, i feel so empty but some things around me can make me to live

 

[Niko66]

I did when I didn't think about it when I was very young around 6 or so. Slowly but surely I've lost my desire to live as things have gotten worse over the years since then.

 

[miserable_existance]

Before 2006

 

[hungry_ghost]

I suppose as a child, I did.

Of course, as a kid, it's not like I sat around contemplating life, or myself.

It's hard to say even now if I would want to live if my circumstances were different.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

All the time. Unfortunately the world accommodating me to live comfortably is unrealistic at best and outright selfish and cruel at worst.

 

[InaudibleEcho]

There are really only two things to make me want to live

1-the idea of having a boyfriend I can actually see and touch but the chances of that happening within this reality is close to zero

2-seeing the updates made to my favorite game, which I'm almost certain is a special interest. But now the game is less of something that makes me super happy and more of something that distracts me from numbness and pain.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Yes I wanted to live and I loved my life until a few years ago. Since I'm trapped now in a permanent downward spiral I just want to CTB. No chance to escape anyway and the sooner the better, but it's such a difficult task.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Not really. The most positive I've felt towards it is thinking it was just weird. I've had moments that I've enjoyed being alive. Still- had I been asked at that point whether I wanted to keep living or die (peacefully,) I would have chosen death. OVERALL life seems too treacherous to be worth the risk to me.

That or- I was a child and maybe a bit young for really considering it. Ages 10 and upwards, I'd worked out what a shitshow this was!

 

[raccoonjk]

I dont remember ever wanting to live, ive only been living because my parents bought me into this world and when i was younger it seemed like i had to live.

 

[jemetire]

Yes

 

[12_Years_Late]

There is no aspect of life or society that I have ever enjoyed. I am just now realizing that everything I have ever done was completely meaningless or a waste of time.

 

[The anhedonic one]

No. Even as a very young child I never felt right in this world.
I began to feel suicidal around age 7 when my clinical depression began to grow stronger.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Yeah its better the eternal sleep..
I really hate this world people are too much foolish even me..
all people do error and regreat the past
I have lot of anxiety to do some wrong choise or fear that people didnt understand/start to hate me
Its better sleep forever than live with terror to fuck up everithing because of human stupidity

 

[Sapphire]

Yes I have wanted to live most of my life. I still would want to live if my circumstances could be different.

 

[hells "angel"]

In my case, I cannot remember ever wanting to live. I have no positive memories of the past, everything is either painful, miserable, boring or just forgettable. Even when I was very young I found death to be comforting and I knew that is what I wanted. I have never been able to cope with life, and I have always seen life as being stressful and tiring. I know that I am not meant for this world. I have no idea what it would be like, to want to live, to actually enjoy life. There is so much dread for the future and there is nothing to look forward to. It has always felt wrong, me being alive. I know I will never want to exist in a life filled with so much suffering. Overall, I can never understand people who want to live. Nothing would ever make me want to stay alive, but that is just the way I am personally. All I want is to forget about this life and finally be at peace.

Had to be around when I was 9 and oblivious to our family's drug abuse, general abuse. Maybe a little earlier, I was in a foster home around nine. But, well, it must've been a little earlier than that, as around 7 I was in a woman's home with my mom and sister. I was probably genuinely happy when I was around 5. No. I still remember being scared running to the neighbors because my parents fighting, and my dad throwing a kitten over a fence. Fuck, man. I don't know when I've been genuinely happy. I can't remember. I've always felt off. That's all I know.

 

[isthisit?]

There was a time when I wanted to live but over time that thought started to fade away. Now I'm here.

 

[chromeparallel]

Yes. Happiness absolutely exists, but it can be lost. It can be ripped from you and held over your head until one day you hang yourself because you just can't live with how your mistakes have caused other unhappiness.

 

[ghost44]

The times when I wanted to live are long gone.

 

[sometimes.sometimes]

I used to want to live. I began to develop them around seven, and they got worse by ten. It is weird, though, because being ten was one of the best years of my life, yet so long ago. They got extreme by fourteen and turned into an attempt by sixteen. It is just getting worse as the years go on.