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Have you ever wanted to be assassinated (without torture and with a quick death)?


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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,596
I can understand why people are afraid; I'm changing my mind too.
 
dead dav

dead dav

Specialist
Feb 27, 2025
353
3 bullets 2 to the chest one between the eyes
 
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thekop85

Sorry I'm not good at English.
Jul 3, 2026
64
If someone with an gun were to give me a guaranteed headshot, I'd be willing to pay him everything I have...
 
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troubled_puppet

troubled_puppet

she/her
Apr 29, 2026
34
I day dream about it.
I would feel guilty about how my family would react. But no one would blame my online habits or judge me for my online history if they found out I browsed spaces like here.

I would mainly worry about it being used for political arguments if for some reason it got into the news.

There is stuff I keep telling myself I want to do first, and that I want control over my situation. I keep telling myself this stuff I need to do first is important.

But there's a small impulsive and very sad, angry part of me that doesn't want to be responsible for what happens after i'm gone.

I voted yes because other days I wish I would wake up and be diagnosed with cancer. This assassination fantasy is very similar and would probably be probably faster.

Firearms are being mentioned which would make sense. i'd be afraid of it being it a public situation.

I was more so day dreaming of going to a clinic and being put under for something innocuous, and i just don't wake up. i have no reason to believe this would ever happen so i dunno.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,596
J'en rêve.
Je me sentirais coupable de la réaction de ma famille. Mais personne ne me reprocherait mes habitudes en ligne ni ne me jugerait pour mon historique de navigation s'ils découvraient que j'ai consulté des sites comme celui-ci.

Ce qui m'inquiéterait surtout, c'est que cela puisse être utilisé à des fins politiques si, pour une raison ou une autre, l'affaire venait à être médiatisée.

Il y a des choses que je me dis sans cesse vouloir faire en premier, et je veux maîtriser la situation. Je me répète que ces priorités sont importantes.

Mais il y a en moi une petite partie impulsive, très triste et en colère, qui ne veut pas être responsable de ce qui se passera après ma mort.

J'ai voté oui parce que, parfois, je rêve de me réveiller avec un diagnostic de cancer. Ce fantasme d'assassinat est très similaire et serait probablement plus rapide.

On parle d'armes à feu, ce qui serait logique. J'aurais peur que cela se produise en public.

Je rêvais plutôt d'aller dans une clinique et de me faire anesthésier pour une chose anodine, et de ne pas me réveiller. Je n'ai aucune raison de croire que cela arrivera un jour, alors je ne sais pas.
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Agree with you and shame to think this 😔
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,596
I think that kind of arrangement might exist in Colombia or Mexico, but not in Western Europe.
 
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jaysthreecents

Member
Apr 10, 2026
34
I don't disagree that assisted suicide should be available to everyone, but "shoot me" suicide came be acceptable, otherwise it would be very easy for a criminal to say "well he paid me cash." with some fake paperwork.
Which is exactly why it needs to be regulated, with the same accessibility for people who need it. Blaming the criminals and punishing the victims is an American solution for creating more problems. Based on power and control, and the satisfaction of "justice".

If you can't consent to birth, the logical compensation is consent to death. Considering we value peaceful and safe births, death should be treated no differently. In many cases we help people die in peace. Why is someone who is suicidal any less privileged? Because there's this concept that a person who wants to kill themselves, is wrong. The Will to Live is innate, not something you control. The conscious mind has the burden of observing and contemplating beyond the capabilities of the perceivable world (imagination). This has given us many gifts, like science, math, our entire society. But it also allowed us to question: why? Why live? All the while being controlled by the invisible bias towards living. Is that truly freedom? Or are we truly that engulfed in the illusion? Scary to think about when you're a young child. Doesn't make the next few decades of existence any more tolerable. It feels like waiting. The worst part is I don't know if the end will be safe, so places like this are all I can resort to when I need to take matters into my own hands. Because society has neglected to become aware enough on a grand scale, we are forced to pick up the slack as individuals. This is a failure of those with power and control. But it's still all the same. Life is suffering, and the natural attachment that controls our desires and values makes it impossible for everyone to justify suicide.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,596
It miss me 4 votes to have 200 votes
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,596
Last vote? There is 199...
Which is exactly why it needs to be regulated, with the same accessibility for people who need it. Blaming the criminals and punishing the victims is an American solution for creating more problems. Based on power and control, and the satisfaction of "justice".

If you can't consent to birth, the logical compensation is consent to death. Considering we value peaceful and safe births, death should be treated no differently. In many cases we help people die in peace. Why is someone who is suicidal any less privileged? Because there's this concept that a person who wants to kill themselves, is wrong. The Will to Live is innate, not something you control. The conscious mind has the burden of observing and contemplating beyond the capabilities of the perceivable world (imagination). This has given us many gifts, like science, math, our entire society. But it also allowed us to question: why? Why live? All the while being controlled by the invisible bias towards living. Is that truly freedom? Or are we truly that engulfed in the illusion? Scary to think about when you're a young child. Doesn't make the next few decades of existence any more tolerable. It feels like waiting. The worst part is I don't know if the end will be safe, so places like this are all I can resort to when I need to take matters into my own hands. Because society has neglected to become aware enough on a grand scale, we are forced to pick up the slack as individuals. This is a failure of those with power and control. But it's still all the same. Life is suffering, and the natural attachment that controls our desires and values makes it impossible for everyone to justify suicide.
Better to have never been born
 
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kilowatt

kilowatt

scumfuc
Sep 9, 2023
443
If I lived in the US I'd ask the first armed thief I encounter to just shoot me dead before robbing me
 
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slapntickle

slapntickle

Member
Oct 28, 2025
77
It's the ultimate way to go - a hitman dispatches you with a clean headshot. You wouldn't even know it happened.

The reality of making it happen are hard though. Even if you could find a hitman willing to do it, the issue of payment would be hard to actually orchestrate - some sort of 'dead mans drop' email that would be sent to the killer 10 days after your death would do it, but how's he to know that you did that? He can't exactly threaten you if in fact you didn't set anything up. Possibly leaving the cash with a trusted friend or relative (with instructions to pay it to the person in question because of an old debt or something) would do, but then the hitman is exposed to people connected to you.

It's something I've often thought about but never managed to think of foolproof way of making sure the hitman knows he will get his full payment for carrying out the job.
 
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