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Have you ever wanted to be assassinated (without torture and with a quick death)?


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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,596
Hi, please vote.
That is the question ...

Thanks
 
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turstehers

turstehers

Member
Jun 20, 2026
23
Lately, when I walk through dark underpasses or in the forest when it's dark I hope some thug just shives me from behind. Why? 😅
 
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HNR_

Can't CTB (yet) bc of the heat and some bs...
May 21, 2026
119
I answered yes but it really depends on the method...

If someone wanted to shoot me for instance and knew for a fact where to aim to not leave me disabled, absolutely
 
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Muktar

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Jun 26, 2026
4
Yes. I'm tired of living in this shitshow.
 
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urgent

Why do I have to suffer unbearably! HELP PLEASE!
Dec 6, 2025
352
Yes, if someone could just shoot me and end this suffering I'd be grateful!
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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I used to think this even before being suicidal. I'd occasionally daydream about it, just ending all the complications of life
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,596
I was very specific in my poll: no torture and a quick death—because some murders are extremely painful, barbaric, and slow... so, as I said, no torture and a quick death.
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,355
I'm jealous of people being murdered, so YES. But only if it's quick and painless.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,596
J'y pensais déjà avant même d'avoir des pensées suicidaires. Il m'arrivait de rêver à ça, de mettre fin à toutes les complications de la vie.
Dream of ctb but never to be assassinated
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,713
I remember in an episode of 'True Blood', a character gets an old army pal to take him out randomly. A shot from the back as he put the rubbish out. Seemed ideal to me. No fear, no pain. Just here one moment, gone the next. Of course- there would likely be anxiety on the run up- as to when it was coming.

Even a firing squad sounds ok though. So long as they are all good shots.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,451
i wish i could pay someone to shoot me in the head today .

There is no logical reason why paying someone to shoot me in the head is not legal.

that's not a crime . it's saving someone from extreme torture. it's a voluntary transaction . i want it and the assister wants money.

these monsters who made this assisting suicide a crime are pure evil . they are the torturers causing millions to suffer extremely by making assisted suicide a crime and also Nembutal a crime and also the sarco suicide pod a crime , everything ....

if i'm in unbearable pain every second or soon will be why wouldn't i want to skip that hell which is a trillion times worse than anyone can imagine. and a shot to the head will do that painlessly and instantly

i don't know who the hell wouldn't want to die like that a shot to the head with a powerful gun instant lights out . we all will die anyway. it's not if you die but how. you can be dying of cancer for years in pain every day. or just be in chronic pain for decades . or can be dying of alsheimers for many years. compare these and which is less pain? the shot to my head is no pain i'm unconsious instantly to the unimaginably beautiful safety and bliss of Eternal Non-Existence.

it's extremeley easy for someone else to kill me with a gun. it's guaranteed . i only get one shot to shoot myself and i'll be unconscious. guns were'nt' made for suicide especially long guns like shotguns or rifles which make pulling the trigger and aiming the gun more difficult because the gun is so long and you have to do it at an odd angle.

it's like saying a vet giving Nembutal to an old dog in pain is a crime . same thing a human is also an anima. but i choose to die


the government monsters made paying someone to shoot me , hiring someone to assist in suicide and Nembutal a crime to keep us slaves in the evil prison.
 
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BradGuy123

Arcanist
Jul 6, 2025
449
I don't want to ctb at the moment but if I did I wish it could be a quick death. Many of the methods I've seen here come risk with of either failure, permanent damage, or a slow/painful/uncomfortable death.
 
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isthisthingon

Arcanist
May 16, 2026
446
I'd love for someone to pull off the perfect shot. Bringing myself to do it is tough.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,596
J'aimerais pouvoir payer quelqu'un pour qu'il me tire une balle dans la tête aujourd'hui.

Il n'y a aucune raison logique pour que payer quelqu'un pour qu'il me tire une balle dans la tête ne soit pas légal.

Ce n'est pas un crime. C'est sauver quelqu'un de tortures extrêmes. C'est un acte volontaire. Je le veux et la personne qui m'aide veut être rémunérée.

Ces monstres qui ont criminalisé l'aide au suicide sont le mal incarné. Ce sont des tortionnaires qui font souffrir atrocement des millions de personnes en criminalisant l'aide au suicide, le Nembutal et la capsule de suicide Sarco. Tout est criminalisé.

Si je souffre atrocement à chaque seconde, ou si ça ne va pas tarder, pourquoi ne voudrais-je pas éviter cet enfer infiniment pire que tout ce qu'on peut imaginer ? Une balle dans la tête suffirait, instantanément et sans douleur.

Je ne comprends pas qui refuserait une telle mort : une balle dans la tête avec une arme puissante, et c'est l'extinction. De toute façon, nous mourrons tous. La question n'est pas de savoir si l'on meurt, mais comment. On peut souffrir d'un cancer pendant des années, souffrir quotidiennement. Ou simplement souffrir de douleurs chroniques pendant des décennies. Ou encore, souffrir d'Alzheimer pendant de longues années. Comparez ces situations : laquelle est la moins douloureuse ? La balle dans ma tête ne me fait pas mal. Je perds connaissance instantanément et accède à la sécurité et à la béatitude inimaginables de l'Éternelle Non-Existence.

Il est extrêmement facile pour quelqu'un d'autre de me tuer avec une arme à feu. C'est garanti. Je n'ai qu'une seule chance de me suicider et je serai inconscient. Les armes à feu ne sont pas faites pour le suicide, surtout les armes longues comme les fusils de chasse ou les carabines, qui rendent le tir et la visée plus difficiles en raison de la longueur de l'arme et de l'angle de tir.

C'est comme dire que donner du Nembutal à un vieux chien souffrant est un crime. De même, un humain est aussi un animal. Mais je choisis de mourir.


Les monstres du gouvernement ont fait du paiement de quelqu'un pour me tirer dessus, de l'embauche de quelqu'un pour m'aider à me suicider et du Nembutal un crime pour nous maintenir en esclavage dans cette prison infernale.
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Same.
 
Cauliflour

Cauliflour

I'm the doodler, I make terrible doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
786
Yes but not quick and painless, that's too boring for me.
 
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needtofindrightway

needtofindrightway
Jun 15, 2025
42
Yes yes yes. Would love to be shot by someone who'd make it as quick and painless as possible.
 
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buriedinmyhead

buriedinmyhead

If pain can purify the heart, mine will be pure
Mar 24, 2026
191
Lately, when I walk through dark underpasses or in the forest when it's dark I hope some thug just shives me from behind. Why? 😅
Whenever I'm walking home at night, I hope that a car will hit me
 
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Cauliflour

Cauliflour

I'm the doodler, I make terrible doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
786
Ok interesting thanks for the informations
yeah i'm a freak, it's kinda my whole identity on this site nowadays because of the amount of vent posts I chuck on here lol
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,596
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Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
350
Regular people get mad at people who assassinate because it's immoral for obvious reasons.

I get mad at people who assassinate because they only go after people that don't want to die. Let me take the damn bullet instead ffs.
 
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never mind me

Experienced
Nov 7, 2022
235
I wouldn't mind being assasinated, especially if it was in a way I don't know nothing about it before (like being shot from behind). I am really desperate at the moment and have zero quality of life, but as the medical problem that causes me to be suicidal can often be cured eventually I can't get myself to ctb yet. So having someone else to kill me would be really nice.
'
 
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grass

Member
May 23, 2026
12
Hi, please vote.
That is the question ...

Thanks
I use to have a slight fixation on guillotines. I don't know why, I guess the name is cool. Also there's Guillotine World in Yume Nikki. I love Yume Nikki and everything related to it.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,596
Les gens ordinaires s'indignent contre les assassins car c'est immoral pour des raisons évidentes.

Je suis furieux contre les assassins, car ils ne s'en prennent qu'à ceux qui ne veulent pas mourir. Laissez-moi prendre cette satanée balle à leur place, bordel !
Same...totally injust
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,596
Up others opinions?
 

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