CTB in 2 weeks

[doXover]

Hi everyone.

I've set a date 2 weeks from now to CTB vis charcoal burning in a small enclosed bathroom in a rented cabin. On the day I CTB I plan on posting updates on a thread detailing what is happening and how I'm feeling. If I'm not active the next day, I've either CTB or am hospitalized.

Please read my other post detailing my CTB plan, and if you can answer any questions I have written (much appreciated ).

It's weird typing this. As a child I've always been depressed, but I never imaged I'd be going out like this. I'm not affiliated with any known religion or spirituality, but part of me believes that there is probably something that comes after death. I don't know what, but I'm a conscious living being. If nothing came after death, then I wouldn't be conscious. It'd be like creating a movie and deleting all of the footage—blip, if that makes sense. "I think therefore I am" type shit lol.

If I fail this attempt, then I'm fucked. Will probably resort to mixing cleaning detergents or chugging anti-freeze. We'll see.

Thanks for reading.

 

[Z0002]

I feel you, hope you'll find peace hugs

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I hope you find the freedom you search for.

 

[hdead]

I wish you your peace you so deserve. I will keep an eye out. Thanks for sharing.

 

[darksouls]

peace and love to you, my friend