Discussion Have You Ever Thought About Acting on Impulse ?

[Hunterer]

I've had intrusive and impulsive thoughts for a while now, and sometimes, at times like this, during the night, I think about simply leaving my room and trying to act on impulse to end everything once and for all, in the hope that the attempt might work. But whenever I think about it, a mix of feelings arise, such as fear, suspicion that something might go wrong, and mainly anxiety. But at the same time, I also feel a sense of happiness, because I think: "If I do this, I'll finally be able to rest and abandon this miserable life". But fear always ends up being greater than any other feeling

Have you ever felt like this too ? Have you ever thought about simply risking everything and acting on impulse ? If so, how did you manage to control yourself ?

 

[anon554]

Mostly I think of the consequences. Ie one of my family members catching me. Or being sent to the loony bin. If I haven't committed and planned then it's not a correct choice of action

 

[brokeandbroken]

I've had intrusive and impulsive thoughts for a while now, and sometimes, at times like this, during the night, I think about simply leaving my room and trying to act on impulse to end everything once and for all, in the hope that the attempt might work. But whenever I think about it, a mix of feelings arise, such as fear, suspicion that something might go wrong, and mainly anxiety. But at the same time, I also feel a sense of happiness, because I think: "If I do this, I'll finally be able to rest and abandon this miserable life". But fear always ends up being greater than any other feeling

Have you ever felt like this too ? Have you ever thought about simply risking everything and acting on impulse ? If so, how did you manage to control yourself ?

I mean for me my life has become like an ocean. With waves pounding me sometimes not so much and sometimes stronger. There's always just despair, loneliness, rage, sadness, hopelessness, and so many other things you don't want. But at times it is overwhelming. That said I'm equally at risk in either case.

End of the day being homeless and having *no opportunities* just because you were unfortunately the *victim* of crimes committed against you what do you expect?

 

[yoshizoom]

I've had intrusive and impulsive thoughts for a while now, and sometimes, at times like this, during the night, I think about simply leaving my room and trying to act on impulse to end everything once and for all, in the hope that the attempt might work. But whenever I think about it, a mix of feelings arise, such as fear, suspicion that something might go wrong, and mainly anxiety. But at the same time, I also feel a sense of happiness, because I think: "If I do this, I'll finally be able to rest and abandon this miserable life". But fear always ends up being greater than any other feeling

Have you ever felt like this too ? Have you ever thought about simply risking everything and acting on impulse ? If so, how did you manage to control yourself ?

Of course! I thought about just grabbing a knife and just stabbing myself, but I hold back. Even though I'm freaking insane and miserable to the point it's unbearable, I still think about my family and how painful certain things can be. I've thought about walking out during the night on a whim to act on it too, but I just wouldn't know what to do. I rather have everything planned, you know?

 

[Buh-bye!]

I've had intrusive and impulsive thoughts for a while now, and sometimes, at times like this, during the night, I think about simply leaving my room and trying to act on impulse to end everything once and for all, in the hope that the attempt might work. But whenever I think about it, a mix of feelings arise, such as fear, suspicion that something might go wrong, and mainly anxiety. But at the same time, I also feel a sense of happiness, because I think: "If I do this, I'll finally be able to rest and abandon this miserable life". But fear always ends up being greater than any other feeling

Have you ever felt like this too ? Have you ever thought about simply risking everything and acting on impulse ? If so, how did you manage to control yourself ?

yeah, terrace, end of cliffs all those places where i could just jump you know. even a highway traffic attracts me but too scared to do any of that

 

[Jon Arbuckle]

I've had intrusive and impulsive thoughts for a while now, and sometimes, at times like this, during the night, I think about simply leaving my room and trying to act on impulse to end everything once and for all, in the hope that the attempt might work. But whenever I think about it, a mix of feelings arise, such as fear, suspicion that something might go wrong, and mainly anxiety. But at the same time, I also feel a sense of happiness, because I think: "If I do this, I'll finally be able to rest and abandon this miserable life". But fear always ends up being greater than any other feeling

Have you ever felt like this too ? Have you ever thought about simply risking everything and acting on impulse ? If so, how did you manage to control yourself ?

I'm a horribly impulsive person, it's one of my least favorite traits. I've had super impulsive thoughts of "just do XYZ thing and get it over with" all the time in terms of killing myself. I don't even know why I don't carry through with it, I guess I just get scared.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I've thought about acting on my impulses a lot, but I am usually able to hold myself back from doing so. Usually my own worries and anxieties end up holding me back. I remember, back in when I was out of the country a few months ago, I got incredibly frustrated and was about to actually act on my impulses and march down to the ocean to drown myself but my mom came to check on me before I could even walk down the driveway.

 

[littleinsanity]

Not much time left so might as well wait for the right moment. Although I would have acted on impulse when I was drunk and I regret not doing it, surprisingly that's what stopped me, I was throwing up so much I couldnt stand up anymore and blacked out in between LOL

 

[Hunterer]

yeah, terrace, end of cliffs all those places where i could just jump you know. even a highway traffic attracts me but too scared to do any of that

Just a few hours ago, I was thinking about just risking everything and trying to jump off a bridge and drown myself. But fortunately, on the bright side, fear keeps me from making rash decisions. If I have to do something, then at least I should plan it out.

 

[Buh-bye!]

Just a few hours ago, I was thinking about just risking everything and trying to jump off a bridge and drown myself. But fortunately, on the bright side, fear keeps me from making rash decisions. If I have to do something, then at least I should plan it out.

agree

 

[Forever Sleep]

To be honest, no. Even when I was younger and, I've had ideation since I was 10. I guess I'm squemish so- anything very violent frightens me. I've always felt strongly that whatever I did would need to work first time too, so- that makes me cautious.

Someone I knew tried to overdose a couple of times. We used to chat about our own forms of ideation and really, neither of us quite understood the other. For them, they felt like that desperation to just do something was more genuine in a way but all I could think was- that clearly was unlikely to work. Especially on the second try when the first try hadn't worked. I don't know why my approach seems calmer. Maybe because I've never gotten so close to actually attempting- I've never felt like I could while certain family members were still alive. Also, maybe because I've had these thoughts for so long.

 

[phantomisgone]

I acted on impulse the day I decided it would be best to CTB. It was supposed to be at 9pm that day. However, when I was at work, I realized that there's no reason to wait at all. I can just leave and finally be at peace.

So during my shift, I went in a trance. I got my belongings, and slowly walked out. I walked all the way to my apartment. Sat at my desk and took SN. In this case, I didn't really fight it and just let it happened. Only because I figured that I wouldn't face any consequences. I have nothing to lose. I will be able to get away with it.

Obviously not because I'm still here typing. (Check my post history for what happened after the fact).

I think, we only act on impulse because we don't expect to face the music. That it would just work out in the end. We only hold ourselves back and think of the possibilities to avoid a consequence that we wouldn't like. The only way to prevent acting on impulse is to brach out the reasonable possibilities that would happen based off of your actions.

 

[divinemistress36]

All the time which would lead to becoming a vegetable

 

[Plentiful_Despair]

I held the fucking barrel of the shotgun to my head several times over the last year, sitting there for some minutes and just trying to do it, and then suddenly I calm down. I'm not impulsive enough it seems.

 

[deathtakeme]

I think about jumping out the window every day. Not high enough.

 

[let.me.let.go87]

I have acted on impulse too many times and that's why I'm still here. Also why I've been in state hospitals and court ordered into confinement before. Impulse attempts never work tbh.

 

[needthebus]

I held the fucking barrel of the shotgun to my head several times over the last year, sitting there for some minutes and just trying to do it, and then suddenly I calm down. I'm not impulsive enough it seems.

i did something similar years ago. SI is rough

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

Impulse works for a lot of people. Many go this way. In some ways it's perhaps preferable to dragging out an agonizing process of suffering trying to get it 'right'.

 

[Valhala]

That's why it's good to have your SN or N ready in advance and maybe act impulsively at a certain moment. Sometimes it seems to me that this is the best way to minimize SI.

 

[sugarb]

I occasionally struggle with impulse control and am prone to intrusive thoughts, but I rarely act on them and the latter are usually violent rather than suicidal; mostly killing/injuring animals I see such as rabbits, squirrels, ducks, cats, birds, etc. I've never acted on the suicidal or violent ones in any capacity.

I once got out of bed at around midnight, walked in the kitchen, and pressed a kitchen knife up to my ribs near my heart (with the sheath still on), but I logicked myself out of it. I don't think it was serious.
Every time a car drives by, I briefly imagine throwing myself in front of it. Also every time I see a train.
Another time while touring inside a building I thought about climbing the railing and jumping to my death, but I was with family and this was before I was consciously suicidal.

I control myself via logic and/or morality. I don't actually want to kill ducks with rocks or break a squirrel's legs, it's just random intrusive thoughts. And I don't want to fail an attempt and won't make any moves until I'm 100% certain it'll work. If I fail and get registered as mentally unwell I won't get a chance to use a firearm.