Have you ever prayed for death?

[Sadbanana]

I did many times. I'm not really religious, but when I took psychadelics I prayed a lot for God to kill me. I was begging him to end it. I know there probably is no God, but at least it was worth a try. I can't wait when this all will finally be over.

 

[ZwartHartje]

I did many times too, but not to *that* god, I never pray to *that* god.

 

[never mind me]

No, I don't believe in any god, so I don't pray. Besides if I did believe in some divine power I would probably pray for a life I can enjoy and not for death.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Every night....

 

[Die.A.Ria]

When i was a child i used to cry to him before i went to sleep praying i wouldnt wake up in the morning but now im an athiest

 

[hdead]

I prayed for my suffering to end many times only to find out it's in my own hands. In my worst moments I really asked to not have to wake up, but obviously that never happened.

 

[Macedonian1987]

Beginning from my teens up until my late 20s I prayed to God to take me probably thousands of times, and yet I'm still here (I'm 39 now)

I guess I still have some unfinished business here in this world.

 

[limenlux]

I've begged God not to let me wake up in the morning thousands of times. I'm ambivalent between atheism and Catholicism; metaphysically paralyzed, as it were. I continue to beg God for death either way.

 

[raphleobillydanni]

I did many times. I'm not really religious, but when I took psychadelics I prayed a lot for God to kill me. I was begging him to end it. I know there probably is no God, but at least it was worth a try. I can't wait when this all will finally be over.

I have prayed for death almost every day of my life

 

[projectpravitas]

I prayed for it all the time when I was a teenager

 

[Sadbanana]

Beginning from my teens up until my late 20s I prayed to God to take me probably thousands of times, and yet I'm still here (I'm 39 now)

I guess I still have some unfinished business here in this world.

I see that it doesn't work :(

 

[dragonofenvy]

Prayed, no. I guess I was begging the cosmos to end my suffering.

 

[alphabetsoupz]

Not in the traditional "praying" sense. But I have always hoped to not wake up for as long as I can remember.

 

[vitbar]

I have begged into cosmos for deliverance on the off chance there is a power capable. I don't believe there is, but in the depths of depression it seemed worth trying.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

All the time

 

[nitrogenous]

Oh yes, lots and lots of time. It has a 0% success rate so far…

 

[valar_morghulis21]

I did many times. I'm not really religious, but when I took psychadelics I prayed a lot for God to kill me. I was begging him to end it. I know there probably is no God, but at least it was worth a try. I can't wait when this all will finally be over.

I pray I die while sleeping. Sometimes I walk the street and I think to myself it won't be so bad now if a truck hit me to death

 

[pk@2001]

Well im still praying for to get rid of this very existence which itself is prolonging my pain and agony.Sadly, my prayers and wishes haven't been answered as of now

 

[rxcha]

I did many times. I'm not really religious, but when I took psychadelics I prayed a lot for God to kill me. I was begging him to end it. I know there probably is no God, but at least it was worth a try. I can't wait when this all will finally be over.

i like thinking that every terrible thing i feel or experience is the demiurge trying to get to me, im not even really gnostic i just think if theres a god he must be truly evil. id even say its likely theres a god on account of how vindictive the world is. the only thing thats kept me alive is the stinging feeling he wants me to ctb and lose.

 

[aspenjrojas]

Back when I was really young and unsure about religion (my whole family believed in it but I was agnostic ish), I would 'test' it by praying stuff like
"Hey god, if you're real, then tomorrow, make me get badly hurt in some way and then I'll believe in you."
"Why did you let me get born? No good god would make me exist because that's mean. If you were nice, you should make me die."
and stuff like that, all the freaking time. Obviously, nothing ever happened.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

I prayed for death since my early teen years (it could have been earlier but I just don't remember). I used to pray for it for a very long time. I still wish for death even now, but I have stopped praying for it because I realized my prayer will never get answered.

 

[telekon]

I did and it sort of baffles me because the time I did it, I wasn't really suicidal I was drunk and I was genuinely happy for a long time before and after this event. This was years ago but looking back I think it revealed something that is just manifesting now. I must have always felt like this deep down.

 

[RawRX3]

Between the ages of 7 and 13 I would a lot. I'd ask to die from cancer, to be simply disappeared, to be replaced with someone else that could live my life instead, to be erase from ever having existed; stuff like that. It never helped and I eventually stop asking because it seemed like it wasn't going to happen

ironic that religion only made the suffering worse, v silly

 

[ZEROEDOUT]

Very much a compulsion I've had over the years. As I've gotten older the idea of "God" has warped from being one set entity and more of a broader system? Some sort of law or set of rules or rationale? Either way its often me trying to reason with it into putting me out of my misery and there is just no reasoning with a brick wall.

 

[Sadbanana]

I did and it sort of baffles me because the time I did it, I wasn't really suicidal I was drunk and I was genuinely happy for a long time before and after this event. This was years ago but looking back I think it revealed something that is just manifesting now. I must have always felt like this deep down.

I have a similar experience. When I was around 5 I almost jumped out of balcony. I wasn't all that unhappy back then, ao maybe I was just prophetic about how terrible my future will be.

 

[voidstar]

I was rather praying to or begging the universe or anything out there that could hear me. No success obviously, but you have your desperate moments. That's why religion exists, for people to cling to something in their despair. I'm not religious.

 

[gh0sttx]

i did when i was a kid

 

[Aren]

I did many times. I'm not really religious, but when I took psychadelics I prayed a lot for God to kill me. I was begging him to end it. I know there probably is no God, but at least it was worth a try. I can't wait when this all will finally be over.

Yes i pray often for it, to be free of life.

 

[LonelyPrince]

I don't pray to God but ask the universe to just end me peacefully

 

[smirks00ts]

I do often sometimes