Have you ever imagined or thought about a specific way you might end your life?

[seeweed]

Mine would be that just before ending my life, i want to see my parents looking at me in horror or pity. Sometimes i envision myself inside a hospital room slowly dying after showing obvious intent of wanting to die this way and there is no cure, and they would just stand there knowing they absolutely cant do anything to save me. I cant hurt them physically, but maybe psychology. . or maybe just laying down with my organs splattered everywhere with a knife in my hand while im slowly losing consciousness. Ever since ive been thinking of ctb, theres always this specific scenery of my parents seeing me just lose it. See the light go away as i die. I would be smiling at them and say that i am their child and their own blood. their names would be seen written in my body for my autopsy and they just straight up just freeze.

 

[ScaredCutter]

guillotine, but who has the time to build one or even the skills

 

[qwert3948]

i think about throwing myself out my window. going face first to the floor and breaking my neck in half

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I've imagined ceasing to exist peacefully and never suffering in this torturous, dreadful and harmful existence ever again which is all I wish and hope for, I just want to be permanently at peace from the terrible mistake of existence.

In this existence that just causes all this suffering and cruelty with no limit as to how much one can be tortured non-existence is just the only peace for me, I'll always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence, I just want to erase this existence that only ever tortures existing beings. I always suffer so much from existing in this evil world where I cannot just have the option to peacefully never suffer again with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what.

 

[PainThreshold]

Well, there's plenty of mosque here in this country, and sometimes i thought of yoinking one from the police during the prostration.

But then there's a good chance it wouldn't be loaded and I'll go to jail if it's not.

 

[halfstay]

there's a state park some hours away from me that im fond of. its actually just before the parking lot, theres a bridge with beautiful natural cliff sides and an easy way to climb down if you're crafty enough. its freezing where i live during this time of year. so i think id take off my shoes and coat and just go exploring until the cold takes me or i fall and die. i imagine looking up at the sky, no light pollution, just nature, and bleeding out in the snow like in all those memes lol. then the animals could have at my body so in the very end, atleast i was useful for something

 

[CutToRelease]

I just wanna bleed out while being nice and cozy. Just slowly loss my life In the cozy embrace of a warm blanlet. Even the death by blood loss is unpredictabil still would be my ideal way to go.

 

[Dinozauria]

I've fantasised about jumping off a bridge on new years while the fireworks are going off lmao. I know that's really cliche but it's a very pretty picture for a last moment :]

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Uh, sorry to be unimaginative, but yeah, I've thought about ideal suicides. Best would be assisted/euthanasia or just a massive opiate or barbiturate overdose at home. After that, gunshot. I've fantasized about hanging for months but it's way too painful, I have trouble committing to it.

 

[Unlucky777]

Yes, absolutely. For me it's just disappearing into thin air. Just vanishing without a trace. Like those people that go missing and they are never seen or heard from again. No body found. No activity on any financial accounts or anything.

I go to sleep every night imagining this scenario.