Have you ever considered murder?

[noname223]

Me never I am just here to judge people if people are honest and open about it.

Serious answer. I never really considered murder. There was the short thought of revenge to my family. But it was more like they should kill themselves out of guilt when I ctb. But I think this thought was rather immature. I don't want that anymore. Not at all.

I am scared to fuck up suicide. Murder seems to be similar difficult. And in contrast to suicide most people want to avoid getting caught. Prison sounds scary. I think it would be a different layer of torture for me. And the guilt and ethical issues it would eat me alive.

 

[mattoman]

Never. I am okay with the thought of hurting myself, but not with the thought of hurting others.

Imo murder and suicide can't even be comparable, since committing suicide is kind of like escaping something but murdering someone is just pure evil.

 

[Forever Sleep]

No.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Nope

 

[noname223]

In a past pole of me some people admitted to murder and some other crimes. We were not sure though whether it was only a joke.
People seem to like Luigi Mangione though.

 

[SmoolPepe]

No, cant say that I have besides self-harm.
I may not agree with some people on certain things, I may not like them one bit, I may even hate some people or find them evil or disgusting or whatever, but I never entertained the idea of doing something like that.
I just want to see people be happy (as long as they dont hurt anyone else), even if I cant obtain what makes me happy, it still makes me feel a bit better if others can.

 

[ms_beaverhousen]

As a crime lover I get tripped up on this. Like why am I so intrigued? But at least I know I'm more intrigued by the psychology BEHIND the murder than the act itself. I notice I've wondered why people get caught, or didn't do this or that, to avoid getting caught; and then I imagine what should have been done to avoid capture. However in these scenarios I envision of myself, I skip the murder part and go to the forensic parts. So while that may come off as a yes, it's really a no lol. I'm not interested.

 

[Forever Sleep]

People seem to like Luigi Mangione though.

I think we can be fascinated with or even sympathise with/ admire some criminals. That doesn't necessarily mean we have a strong desire to do what they did.

Sometimes I wonder if it's just a fascination with the idea of feeling that free. I have a grizzly fascination with true crime. I don't think that can be all that healthy. I can truly say that I have no desire to break the law myself. I suppose I'm just grimly fascinated with how extreme some lives are. Like @ms_beaverhousen said though- it's more an intrigue with their psychology. What drives criminals to act like that? How is it people around them don't suspect? Or, do they? For me- weirder still is when abuse victims won't leave. It's a whole mixture of feeling sad for them, horrified by what they went through but also kind of perplexed that they put up with it.

 

[yowai]

When I was like 13-14 I had horrible relationship with my parents and wished they die, even thought about poisoning them I obviously didn't do it and I can't imagine it now, I was so messed up then and wanted to get away from then. That's the only time I ever thought about something like that

 

[Dai]

People seem to like Luigi Mangione though.

If he was an unattractive incel it'd be a completely different narrative lol. But yeah it's a bit surprising with how many people are so openly thrilled about the murder.

imo most if not all people have or will fantasize about murder (whether they admit or not), but to seriously consider it is a different story.

 

[ms_beaverhousen]

I've decided that it can "be healthy" to have a morbid fascination with crime. I've watched A LOT of professionals' give their opinions from all kinds of descriptive job titles pertaining to crime. They all seem like perfectly functional adults with full lives who happen to have chosen a really dark field of work. The thing is they're HELPING people by contributing and solving crime. They often describe crime scenes like puzzles, which I understand but that's not my viewpoint. They don't enjoy the depravity of the crime and neither do we as crime buffs. It's that train wreck phenomenon of can't look away. We can't imagine what it would take to do such depraved things so we're so perplexed that it amazes us. That's what we like I think, or at least a part of it and why I don't feel gross anymore as a consumer. Plus there's the good conquerors all effect, like the greater the villain the better the hero. So the worse the crime, the more victorious that it's resolved.

There's also something visceral and primitive tat goes back centuries in our DNA because we don't have to eat each other or fight for food or to mate, so how has that instinct not evolved and disappeared like a normal adaptive trait? I mean it never will, but our crime loving brains can't comprehend that so we're hooked for life lol. Just stuff like that. It also helps that I'm disgusted by murder when it comes down to it, so I feel confident that I'm not psychotic in that sense.
But like you were saying, I hope there isn't a certain voyeurism that is apart of what peaks my interest. I know I'd be too afraid to do anything, and would go tug on a nearby officer's shirt and tell on myself, so that's not really comforting lol. I've thought of starting a crime thread btw.
But Americans can understand when I say, if tempted it's probably best to go with a "Just Say No." approach :)

 

[Apathy79]

I think I could probably do it in self defence or defence of someone else whose life was at risk. I've also often asked myself, as I used to advocate for euthanasia to be legalised, whether I would be able to do it myself if asked, and I think I could. I also think I'd be capable of administering the death penalty. There are contexts where I think it is the right thing to do and I think I could carry it out. But not as a planned murder like a hit or a serial killer - not the type people are interested in reading about the psychology behind it.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

When I was in 3rd grade I got sent to the principal's office because we were supposed to write a 'How-to' essay and the subject of my How-to Essay was 'How to Kill Your Worst Enemy'. My worst enemy at the time was this other kid who kept teasing me and belittling me every chance he got. I don't remember what exactly I wrote in this essay but I remember I had a very clinical approach to it which is why I didn't think it was all that bad. I guess I must have wanted to kill him though. Eventually this problem got resolved when I punched him in the arm and got suspended from school for a day for it. For context, I was and still am incredibly weak so even my hardest punch should have felt like nothing especially for him considering he was pretty high level in his Taekwondo classes apparently. Everyone saw how lame he was for fake-crying after getting punched by me because they knew there's no way he could have been hurt by that.

 

[Thisisnotaname]

I killed a frog one time in mid school. That's all I swear


Edit for @Dai , it was in biology

 

[Dai]

I killed a frog one time in mid school. That's all I swear


Edit for @Dai , it was in biology

Spoiler

jk

 

[Pluto]

 

[Namelesa]

I have considered murder at a lot of points in my life. First was with teachers in school cus how much trauma I I got from it.

I have considered killing the person in my second relationship cus of my fear of abandonment being so overwhelming and that so that he would not be able to "leave" me. I mostly got this idea from Jeffrey Dahmer as I thought I could maybe use his way of coping with his fear abandonment to cope with mine. Thankful I don't think about doing this anymore but some alternative universe probably has me being Jeffrey Dahmer 2.

I also considered to kill that partner's mother cus she is very neglectful and abusive to him. I absolutely hate the way she treats him.

Finally I have considered killing the family members I live with so that I could escape the house they trap me in to maybe be able to ctb. I have not done this mostly cus I don't want my dog to deal with the murder of my family members and cus to me even if I hate my family members for trapping me here, they don't deserve something as bad as being murdered.