Have you already written your suicide note?

[Dliena]

Nope not yet for me as my handwriting is ass and it takes me over a century to write down anything but I guess I am just making endless excuses at this point so idk. But I know I'll have to write it down at some point don't want to be leaving anyone hanging without an explanation or nothing.

 

[sserafim]

No, I haven't written it yet. Tbh I still don't know if I want one or not

 

[heisenberg]

i've written some drafts here and there but haven't sat down to finalize one.

 

[littlehellishlife]

Yes. I keep it in my drawer. I don't care about it being perfect. I don't expect anyone to understand my decision. It's just waiting until I get the courage.

 

[DeletedAccount0864]

No. There's nobody to write to.

 

[Meteora]

This is a problem, I would like to say some things to specific people but when I start writing it seems like it's not enough. There's also the problem that I don't know if I should really write to certain people, like my ex, for example, she was the great love of my life, today she has her own life and in a way she's happy with her life, I don't want to ruin it. all over again, understand? I think it would be better if she forgot me and didn't even know about my death

I understand. How high is the probability that she will learn about your death, anyway? If you feel you have something to say, I d write it. even if it is two sentences. At least that is how I m gonna do it. Who knows, maybe she d be grateful to have a personal note from you, especially if someone tells her.

I've written a lot but end up rethinking them. I've got 2 currently, one for my family and the police, and another for the couple of people I know online if they bother reading them. I write about some of the things that happened to me in life that made me end up hating it since I was young, how nothing could fix it, and how my current situation still sucks and that there's not a future for me. I have a problem where I can't be concise and write too much so I'm always ditching and trying to shorten them. Not sure why I go through the effort when nobody but the coroner will read it but whatever.

I have the same tendency. Not to write too much, though but to rewrite it again and again, basically saying the same in other words . Guess that is my obsessive mind.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

No. I don't know what to say/write anyway. When I was very suicidal last year I often thought about it but each time I wanted to write sth my brain turned into a big void. So probably if I ever CTB there won't be a note.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

i would definitely love to read the third one, should i dm you for that ??

I've only shared it with one close friend, but I probably won't share it with someone I don't know yet. Sorry.

 

[murderatruemorgue]

I've thought about it. Tried doing so. Honestly, I don't think there's anything left to say I haven't already said a million times in life. I don't think a note always makes sense for everyone. There are some situations where I think it would be helpful. Not mine.

 

[Ironborn]

I wrote one out before my first attempt, it was apologetic about what I had done.
But after the shitstorm that followed my attempt I ripped that up and rewrote it.
"I'm done."
They already took enough from me they are not getting anything more.

 

[greebo6]

Tried to write one once. Thought it would be easy with a lot to say . To my great surprise it was actually quite difficult and I found I had little to say . So I will not be leaving one. No point.

 

[Final_Choice]

I've partly written a few, but mostly just to write it as if I was journaling. I've decided I won't actually leave any note.

 

[parallelluniverse]

Written and destroyed many times. Haven't felt the need for a note for years now... Haven't written one recently either... so no, I'm going to go without any trace if something happens to me rn.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

Yes I have written a suicide note before, but it has went through many multiple drafts, because every new month that I am alive causes me to add or remove paragraphs from it; my suicide note has been retconned more times than the Star Wars universe. I think the reason for this is because there is so much that I want to express (mostly anonymously) using my suicide note, but I do not know how write it all down in a way that seems concise.

 

[Aloneandinpain]

Can't be bothered, and even if I could I wouldn't be able to do it. Definitely not for me.

 

[feelsohelpless]

I have written a to-do list that I need to do when I CTB. These are some of them:

- source anti-emetics
- write letters - 4 personal letters
- General letter with important phone numbers and instructions for pets etc (they will be fine, aftercare has already been organised. It is my furkids which I am finding the hardest thing to
- Organise who I want to get certain items.
- plan email alert for 24 hours after CTB so I am found but not too early (I live alone)
- pay rent so that there is 4-6 weeks paid in advance to allow for less pressure for those left behind.

The letters I have already written and saved so that I can tweak them until completely happy, where I will then hand write them. Cried with every single one. I am very close to completing my to-do list which means there isnt much left to do and I can finally say goodbye to hell and be at peace

 

[Naked Weapon]

I finished mine tonight after struggling for years and years to find what I wanted to say. I got tired of the thank yous and I'm sorrys so I decided to get a bit more abstract with it; I now feel content with my message for the first time. I took every sentence in my diary that started with the letter "T" and put them together, and somehow that arrangement expresses my pain, method, apologies, et cetera.

 

[Henryk]

I understand. How high is the probability that she will learn about your death, anyway? If you feel you have something to say, I d write it. even if it is two sentences. At least that is how I m gonna do it. Who knows, maybe she d be grateful to have a personal note from you, especially if someone tells her.

I have a lot to say to her, after all she changed my life completely and I am eternally grateful for that. The problem is that I know that my death will cause her some suffering, after all we were together for 9 years, she also had great pain recently, she recently lost her grandmother and father, I saw the suffering she had and I wouldn't like it. to cause her more pain. But in fact, whether she wants to or not, she will find out about my death since our families were very close, so maybe you're right and writing something to her will be comforting in some way.

 

[WaitingAllMyLife]

I finally wrote my notes last week! After years of agonizing over it, putting it off, dreading it... I woke up one morning with all the words in my head. I was tired so thought I'd write it later but I realized that whenever I think that, I lose the words. So I got up and got to writing and it's done! I wrote to my niece and nephew who mean the world to me. I could never before find the right words but they just came to me and I am so pleased with the outcome. I have felt such a weight lifted ever since!

Then a few days later the same happened with the one other note I wanted to write. This one a completely different type. This one is to someone who took away my only option to not CTB, intentionally and with malice. Someone who I believed to be my best friend but who turned out to be the most evil, manipulative, corrosive soul who literally invested in and is counting on me to CTB. So fuck them. They got what they wanted, they can face knowing the truth and consequences directly.

I will be putting a hold on mail delivery (so as not to call attention/alarm with mail piling up) so when the time comes, I will pop them in the mailbox a block away and get on with what I need to do.

 

[broth0100]

not yet but i think id probably just write some general instructions for my belongings, maybe wat little money i have if thts necessary. dont think id have many sentimental things to say to most of my loved ones. tho id probably write something to my girlfriend so tht she doesnt think its her fault or anything if we're still dating by then.

 

[Anon1337]

No. I will never write a note. I don't need to explain why I CTB to anyone.

 

[HamesThePenguin]

what do you guys think of not leaving a note at all?

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I'm working on it. I might need to edit some stuff since I started like two years ago and some of the stuff in it is outdated.

 

[Unhumanly.]

I used to think I want to make a voice recording of message before I go to explain everything, but no matter what, I know I will be blamed and the pathetic one, so , I'll leave this world with no messages behind

 

[AshersGirl]

I've written more than one and they turn into epic sagas.

I'm not great at condensing down my word count.

 

[drakflowerfire]

i tried once. For me was a really hard to write to myself and few weeks i wanted to write once. But you can just tell anything to need to say goodbye.

 

[recat]

I have written many in the form of public posts in an account on a platform that will be discovered after I pass. But nothing specific and individual. I have chosen not to write anything individual. When I pass, the people who used to care about me will know exactly why

 

[AL-SL-AK]

In my head I'd write personal notes to a good few people but whenever I've tried it feels forced and contrived. I feel cringey. I think the only way I can possibility write what I need to say is the day I CTB. I sometimes think maybe a voice note or video instead although a note seems more personal

 

[Argo]

I'm still not sure if I will write anything to anyone who was closest to me, I think those notes tend to get confused. We write them a certain way, from a certain perspective, they're received by usually a very different perspective. I think they just end up getting misunderstood in many cases especially if you're writing to someone where things are anything but uncomplicated. It's definitely not easy to decide to write one, or to decide what to write.

 

[persimmon]

I wrote mine to the important people in my life a few months back, in case I decide to do it quickly. It's in a document I think will be found easily enough when people look at my laptop.