Grausamkeit
Member
- Nov 6, 2024
- 9
I left this site for a while. Because i found meaning. I found a partner who saw everything they way i did too. He seriously felt real, almost everyone else seems fucking unreal to me. Everything in this world feels unreal to me. He was literally gave me a will to live.
Hes dead now. He killed himself by jumping, whilst i fell asleep. I didnt even know. There was no warning signs, nothing. I woke up fucking excited to spend time with him. I woke up so fucking happy, and excited to talk to him. Then i found out he fucking died. Hes gone, like actually gone. I still cant get my head around this, it all feels fucking unreal, yet its real. I cant beleive this. We had a good relationship, everytime we argued we just got closer. The only thing i can do now is cope and pretend hes still alive. Thats all i can do. I text his number pretending hes reading them, even though hes dead.
I have lost everything, i didnt have anything anyways. I was set on dying before him, and when i met him i genuinely felt id never return to this.
Why did you have to die, you coulve just talked to me. you know i do everything i can for you. So why leave me like that. No warning signs nothing, you shoulve fucking spoke to me.
You left me here you alone fucking liar. U said u werent gonna leave so why break ur promise?
Anyways, all this progress i made is all gone. All my efforts to nothing. I gave up so much. I gave up everything for that guy.
I promised him id also kill myself if he leaves, because i have nothing else anyways. I wont break my promise. So im planning on jumping.
ily
Hes dead now. He killed himself by jumping, whilst i fell asleep. I didnt even know. There was no warning signs, nothing. I woke up fucking excited to spend time with him. I woke up so fucking happy, and excited to talk to him. Then i found out he fucking died. Hes gone, like actually gone. I still cant get my head around this, it all feels fucking unreal, yet its real. I cant beleive this. We had a good relationship, everytime we argued we just got closer. The only thing i can do now is cope and pretend hes still alive. Thats all i can do. I text his number pretending hes reading them, even though hes dead.
I have lost everything, i didnt have anything anyways. I was set on dying before him, and when i met him i genuinely felt id never return to this.
Why did you have to die, you coulve just talked to me. you know i do everything i can for you. So why leave me like that. No warning signs nothing, you shoulve fucking spoke to me.
You left me here you alone fucking liar. U said u werent gonna leave so why break ur promise?
Anyways, all this progress i made is all gone. All my efforts to nothing. I gave up so much. I gave up everything for that guy.
I promised him id also kill myself if he leaves, because i have nothing else anyways. I wont break my promise. So im planning on jumping.
ily
