Have any BPD people found a way to survive and thrive?

[itwasallascream]

I have a plan and will CTB tomorrow after saying bye to my therapist.

My wife of 14 years left me 17 days ago and the pain remains just as intense as on day 1. Nothing I do changes this and I cannot imagine my life without her. I don't have a good relationship with my family and I have to move back home to a city where I know no one and start from scratch with everything in my life. I can't see how this is possible. This is just too difficult and too painful.

I am convinced that CTB is the best thing for me as there is no way I can get through this.

To demonstrate this, I thought I'd ask this question. Has anyone with BPD made it? Have you figured out how to live a happy life free from the need to be with one person and stable enough to function and have solid social relationships? Is anyone with BPD happy?

 

[Dot]

I have a plan and will CTB tomorrow after saying bye to my therapist.

My wife of 14 years left me 17 days ago and the pain remains just as intense as on day 1. Nothing I do changes this and I cannot imagine my life without her. I don't have a good relationship with my family and I have to move back home to a city where I know no one and start from scratch with everything in my life. I can't see how this is possible. This is just too difficult and too painful.

I am convinced that CTB is the best thing for me as there is no way I can get through this.

To demonstrate this, I thought I'd ask this question. Has anyone with BPD made it? Have you figured out how to live a happy life free from the need to be with one person and stable enough to function and have solid social relationships? Is anyone with BPD happy?

Wld jst sy tht u r askng ppl on Sanctnd Suicde - = cld b wrth askng sme ppl in BPD spport grps also as currnt sampl = goin2 b mre neg8tve givn natre of webste

Am srry fr wht u r goin thru - cnnt imgne hw dffclt tht mst b fr u

 

[itwasallascream]

I thought that too. There is a section on this site for therapy and I think I'll post it there too. I guess the people who reply here are alive lol. Maybe someone can prove me wrong?

 

[spacehardware]

Person with BPD here. I have moments of happiness. Sometimes even days or weeks of feeling alright. I'm stable enough to function, I have a full time job, support myself financially. Social relationships not so much. I don't have friends, I'm unable to make connections with others. But beneath everything, the appearing okay, life being tolerable mostly, I'm incredibly unhappy. My life has not panned out the way I wanted it to and I am forever mourning what could have been, the things the people I grew up with have that I don't and never will. Most of all, I hate that moments of happiness, or alright weeks, can crumble into an absolute shitshow at the most minor inconvenience, and I go from 0-suicidal in 60 seconds.


I wish you the best. When you say goodbye to your therapist, keep in mind that if they suspect what you are planning, your therapist could escalate any concerns and that could land you in a psych ward on a section. Be subtle. All the best.

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

I have a plan and will CTB tomorrow after saying bye to my therapist.

My wife of 14 years left me 17 days ago and the pain remains just as intense as on day 1. Nothing I do changes this and I cannot imagine my life without her. I don't have a good relationship with my family and I have to move back home to a city where I know no one and start from scratch with everything in my life. I can't see how this is possible. This is just too difficult and too painful.

I am convinced that CTB is the best thing for me as there is no way I can get through this.

To demonstrate this, I thought I'd ask this question. Has anyone with BPD made it? Have you figured out how to live a happy life free from the need to be with one person and stable enough to function and have solid social relationships? Is anyone with BPD happy?

I don't have BPD but all the best to you whatever you decide to do. It's so hard isn't it?

 

[user127679866]

I have bpd and I am never truly happy. I have moments where im "ok" but its just me compartmentalizing the internal pain and pushing through everyday life to make it tolerable. Im mostly empty and dissociate to cope.

 

[itwasallascream]

Person with BPD here. I have moments of happiness. Sometimes even days or weeks of feeling alright. I'm stable enough to function, I have a full time job, support myself financially. Social relationships not so much. I don't have friends, I'm unable to make connections with others. But beneath everything, the appearing okay, life being tolerable mostly, I'm incredibly unhappy. My life has not panned out the way I wanted it to and I am forever mourning what could have been, the things the people I grew up with have that I don't and never will. Most of all, I hate that moments of happiness, or alright weeks, can crumble into an absolute shitshow at the most minor inconvenience, and I go from 0-suicidal in 60 seconds.


I wish you the best. When you say goodbye to your therapist, keep in mind that if they suspect what you are planning, your therapist could escalate any concerns and that could land you in a psych ward on a section. Be subtle. All the best.

I didnt get around to it but I am going tomorrow. Thanks for your help again. I wish i could leave you with the few ounces of happiness i have left.

 

[itwasallascream]

I have bpd and I am never truly happy. I have moments where im "ok" but its just me compartmentalizing the internal pain and pushing through everyday life to make it tolerable. Im mostly empty and dissociate to cope.

Same
I dont see any reason to stay here

Person with BPD here. I have moments of happiness. Sometimes even days or weeks of feeling alright. I'm stable enough to function, I have a full time job, support myself financially. Social relationships not so much. I don't have friends, I'm unable to make connections with others. But beneath everything, the appearing okay, life being tolerable mostly, I'm incredibly unhappy. My life has not panned out the way I wanted it to and I am forever mourning what could have been, the things the people I grew up with have that I don't and never will. Most of all, I hate that moments of happiness, or alright weeks, can crumble into an absolute shitshow at the most minor inconvenience, and I go from 0-suicidal in 60 seconds.


I wish you the best. When you say goodbye to your therapist, keep in mind that if they suspect what you are planning, your therapist could escalate any concerns and that could land you in a psych ward on a section. Be subtle. All the best.

Thanks. Im still here but it got worse and i dont see any reason to stay

Person with BPD here. I have moments of happiness. Sometimes even days or weeks of feeling alright. I'm stable enough to function, I have a full time job, support myself financially. Social relationships not so much. I don't have friends, I'm unable to make connections with others. But beneath everything, the appearing okay, life being tolerable mostly, I'm incredibly unhappy. My life has not panned out the way I wanted it to and I am forever mourning what could have been, the things the people I grew up with have that I don't and never will. Most of all, I hate that moments of happiness, or alright weeks, can crumble into an absolute shitshow at the most minor inconvenience, and I go from 0-suicidal in 60 seconds.


I wish you the best. When you say goodbye to your therapist, keep in mind that if they suspect what you are planning, your therapist could escalate any concerns and that could land you in a psych ward on a section. Be subtle. All the best.

Thanks. Im still here but it got worse and i dont see any reason to stay

Wld jst sy tht u r askng ppl on Sanctnd Suicde - = cld b wrth askng sme ppl in BPD spport grps also as currnt sampl = goin2 b mre neg8tve givn natre of webste

Am srry fr wht u r goin thru - cnnt imgne hw dffclt tht mst b fr u

Good point
I may ask another forum to increaee my sample population

 

[JKFleck]

I'm so hurt and burnt out that I don't even have the energy to open up and tell my story in full detail so long story short,

I'm BPD, made a best friend (and only friend/person I ever trust and feel safe with), had a self-hate BPD episode, he distanced me and said he don't know if he will ever come back, I begged him and got clingy, he blocked me, that was 9 months ago, (which feels like 90 years of infinite pain) I went through and completed DBT, told that to him through a mutual friend and waiting for him to come back and see if I'll ever see that friend request

On my birthday (6th September) if he still haven't come back by then I'll kms

 

[jbear824]

Fellow BPD sufferer here. And nope. Been wanting to leave for 27 years now.