Help Have a well plan for CTB but

[tired0zymandias]

I now have a seriously anxiety issues

First:
I'm a very extrovert person, have so many friends. And you know when I got quite a little and all of my friends is kinda terrorized me with texts and calls.

I now they care about me but that's making me more anxious.

Second:
The stupid seller put description on the labels that's SN. My mother keep asking me about that. But I ordered another one and fortunately its the best quality since its sealed from the manufacture.

Idk why I keep getting anxious and make scenario on my mind that my mom will be more suspicious or maybe called a police to look on my room. Because tbh idk where to put it save other than my room.

Its getting worse like my heart beating like 100 times more than usual. I feel so scared because of I was failed on my first attempt last year and becoming like a zombie for 2 months. I don't want to get caught this time. I don't have any more money, I already invested it on this CTB plan.

Idk what I'm talking but, I got no one to talk about it except you guys

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so dreadful and cruel how those who wish to be gone cannot just free themselves in peace without all the risks and secrecy but anyway best wishes.