Not.Flugel
✨Invaild Pharmacy Student✨
- May 7, 2023
- 93
I am blackout drunk once again, so sorry for the rant. I have my SN and all my other meds ready for a while. What gave me the final push was the realization that nobody gives a fuck about you. Not like the first time, but the final realization. I hate all of them so much. It's so fucking easy to say you care and then chicken out, once I self harm or show any type of suicidal behaviours, even if it's light af compared to what's going through my mind. None of them deserve any closure when I fucking ctb at the beginning of next month, all of these fucking bastards deserve to suffer for their bs. "Oh I care about you, but only as long as you are mentally 100% fine." You don't, you never did, you deserve to suffer for your lies. Fuck you. (Sorry for this drunk rant.)