Story Has whatever happened to you changed you for the better or worse?

[Makko]

I don't think I changed much as things happened to me, and I made things happen. What did change is my own understanding of myself. I got a little clearer about who I am and what my relationship with the world is. So as for "good" and "bad", today I'll more surely choose the left hand path in any situation, not because life turned me this way, but because life opened my eyes on the fact that I was this way to start with.

 

[loopylou]

For the worse.

I was badly abused as a child and I can't handle living life as my emotional response to almost anything is so over the top . But feels normal to me. It's destroyed any human connection I have ever held.
And I can't see a way to get over my post traumatic stress and anxiety

 

[lugerepair]

I started out being an overall rather unpleasant person I think. Unempathetic, arrogant, with a superiority complex. Then in my young adulthood all of that came crashing down. I guess one could call it maturity. A sort of maturity at least. I realized that I'm not better than everyone else, and I learned to empathize with people a bit more.

But as for "what has happened to me"...I couldn't really say. There isn't really a before and an after. Shit hit the fan very, very early on in my life, during my early childhood. Would I have been a better person if my parents hadn't, for all intents and purposes, abandoned me? Yeah, most likely. Kind of hard to pour from an empty cup. I've never been the most giving or supportive person. Although I've had my moments. But most of them ended in heartbreak. So now I'm kind of afraid to love people. I'm tired of being betrayed. Although I haven't closed myself off entirely.

 

[watchingthewheels]

I was born with autism and have lived with bullying and physical brawls for the first twenty six years of my life, and over the course of forty years have seen the country I live in morph into a socialist Weimar Republic on the verge of a Rome-style collapse. It's personal as well as existential terror that has shaped me.

I'm probably better in that I'm stronger and harder, like a tempered blade, but I'm also broken and dead inside now. Only hate and contempt remains.

I've been warning about this since 1996, but never thought I'd see it in my lifetime. Yet, here we are.
The Curse of Cassandra.

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

I was born with autism and have lived with bullying and physical brawls for the first twenty six years of my life, and over the course of forty years have seen the country I live in morph into a socialist Weimar Republic on the verge of a Rome-style collapse. It's personal as well as existential terror that has shaped me.

I'm probably better in that I'm stronger and harder, like a tempered blade, but I'm also broken and dead inside now. Only hate and contempt remains.

I'm sorry for you and others here who've experienced bullying and/or abuse. I don't know how human beings can be so cruel to one another.

To quote Warhammer 40,000, "My armor is contempt. My shield is disgust. My sword is hatred." With that said, I don't think my faith in humanity will ever be restored.

 

[Trisolaris]

For the worst. I thought that depression and anxiety were my rock bottom but then I got damaged by psych meds.