I came here hoping to find a way to leave peacefully. But that isn't going to happen. This site did give me more ideas and such. Reading about all the failures and how hard things actually are has stalled me. I still want to go, and I am constantly thinking of how. Right now I don't have a clue. I really wish I did. Failure is just not an option.
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thefirstluminary
never knows best
- Mar 9, 2026
- 119
Actually, I hate this site. It hasn't really changed my mind maybe it even encouraged me more, though sadly the methods were inaccessible to me. Now I'm stuck here reading some users posts is kinda comforting because I relate, but generally, it's very miserable and makes me sad
june
Experienced
- May 25, 2020
- 215
What do you mean?
I love this site, if anything the social company is enough for me to be distracted and it feels good to connect and contribute at the minimum to distracting someone if they are having a really tough time.
Before I found SASU, I believed you could simply buy SN on Amazon and CTB easily. Neither of them being the case.
UserFromNowhere
Trial Mod
- May 4, 2025
- 396
Honestly, it's difficult to say whether this site has given me space to live or just prolonged my end. I don't think it's changed my decision that I intend to take my own life, as the suicidal ideation constantly gnaws at me, but it's entirely possible that without this website I would've died already due to impulsive ideation forcing my attempts through the veil of death rather than the attempts I made with other methods even as the sure-fire methods I have sit idly by, awaiting their time.
Deepdense
Student
- Dec 30, 2025
- 165
It has for me. I'm more or less unable to feel emotion, but seeing and hearing about so many who struggle with their emotions made me realize to some degree I have it better. Of course, I still hope to die soon but I don't see it as a need like I once did.It hasn't changed my mind but it's given me other things I need to think about before I make any final decisionsIt hasn't changed my desire to suicide- that's been there for 36 years. Regarding the feasibility of suicide- I'm not sure really. Actually suiciding has always felt like it couldn't be an option till my Dad went first.
I suppose when I was much younger, I foolishly thought it would be as straight forward as slashing my wrists in a bathtub or swallowing a bunch of paracetamol. Maybe I still had suspicions though because- I've searched for method information on and off since my twenties.
I suppose the site has made me entirely throw some methods out- Overdose and cutting. Not that I have easy access to firearms in the UK but- it's made me realise even that isn't as straight forward as I imagined.
I'm naturally quite cautious and well prepared so- it hasn't really changed my nature. I'm not sure it's changed my nature overall really. I was always a pessimist. I suppose it does allow me to wallow in it. But, I don't think being around people with optimistic platitudes would have changed how I actually feel about life. I just would have felt more isolated feeling that way.
june
Experienced
- May 25, 2020
- 215
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