Has there ever been a moment in your life which destroyed you from the inside

[makethepainstop]

Two major events when I was young. The first one at about 5 years of age when my new step dad at a motel whipped off all of his clothes,(he was drunk), and screaming out ,I am a nudist! The second event when I was about 7 years old, and my redneck uncle says to everyone in the dining room that I was in the kitchen with the womenfolk where I belonged. Nice thoughts for a young kid to start out life hearing!

 

[Ligottian]

Rather than one moment, more like the mental death of a thousand cuts.

 

[Ineedtodie]

I think being inhibited in speech and suffering from the intense hell of body dysmorphia for too long. Those are the biggest factors among others. Childhood neglect and dysfonctional family reinforced my bad luck and different life unfavorable circumstances as well.
I think all factors combined broke my soul nd lead me to place of suffering behind imagination.

 

[actual_fox]

Many moments when I was bullied in school or shouted or scorned by my parents. It led to terrible loss of self worth. Worst part that they were "right" I really was different.

 

[makethepainstop]

Many moments when I was bullied in school or shouted or scorned by my parents. It led to terrible loss of self worth. Worst part that they were "right" I really was different.

Just because one is different, does not mean one is without worth and value.

 

[GreyCTB]

Too many times to count

 

[neonzebra]

As a child: sexual trauma, bullying, being raised by an acutely depressed and stressed mother, father absent.
As an adult: several psychologically abusive partners, my mother being diagnosed with terminal cancer, my sister also getting cancer and disowning our whole family very suddenly, witnessing slow painful death of my mother, being ditched by my best friend when my mother became ill.

 

[DysphoriaKilledMe]

Seeing attractive women irl, in social media etc living the life I wish I could have. Also being called a "she" when I am unfortunately a "he".

(Please don't feed me that bs about essence and soul. Physical appearance trumps all for me)

 

[Spiritual survivor]

I had a traumatic breakup and that really messed me up. I never had one like that. I was not myself for a long time. I went into this severe grief reaction that lasted way too long. Although I healed from it, it still sometimes comes back. That person reconnected with me recently only to bring back up the pain. He was just hoovering or checking up on me but I handled it stupidly. This isn't the reason I want to exit but it is on the list of things that make me want to be dead.

 

[Meaninglessness]

Yeah, there are people who have destroyed my life. There are mean people who lie only to hurt others. There are people who lie for all sorts of reasons. Ignore it! But our bodies will also be destroyed when we live long enough - we will suffer from diseases and disabilites. Albert Einstein: "Weak people revenge. Strong people forgive. Intelligent people ignore."

 

[Ansiet]

In my case, that moment was when I entered high school. I was bullied and humiliated until the death of my sister, then people just ignored me and talk about me like some kind of alien.

 

[Ineedtodie]

I think the part of my life that also inflicted pain and prepared me of more worse to come is the fact I had lived my chidhood in a distressed family do to my father abscence and mother being overstressed dealing with all my siblings needs nd life demands. I think the youngest in the family were neglected the most including both my sisters. Life circumstances could be working against from day one.