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GASLIGHTER7000

august
May 1, 2025
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has anyone went through a period of confidently planning to ctb, however changing their mind due to improvements in your life? what happened in your case?
 
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StupiderJuniper

StupiderJuniper

Overqualified Dog
Jun 21, 2026
28
this happened to me not too long after i first planned to ctb. this was around the end of 2025/start of 2026, where through a string of luck i found some REALLY amazing friends. i also managed to begin transitioning after getting on hrt. those few months (up until april) were amazing, i really miss them as i barely wanted to ctb. after that tho, some horrid things happened, and almost all of those improvements (excluding the friends) were undone, so i'm back to this. maybe it will get better again., idk
 
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Grasp of darkness

Grasp of darkness

Member
Jun 27, 2026
43
Getting a job I don't hate. When I first started my career I could hold a job for a couple months at most. I would dread going to work so much it would drive me insane.
However, my parents and general environment were really on my ass to have one. I always felt like a loser. Like the odd one out.

I can't say I love my current job, but I definetely don't hate it and have been holding it for over 2 years now.
It helps to get out of isolation, get some meaning out of your days and of course having money to do stuff or buy things.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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FYI, you would potentially get more responses to this in the Recovery section than here.
 
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bipolar22

bipolar22

Notorious shtposter
Aug 31, 2022
424
I changed my mind to live with my gf i met right when when was about to leave. Its not better tbh its just diffrent. More like an extension. frankly I woulda preferred to be gone.
 

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