Has anyone on here ever distroyed their lives because of Borderline Personality Disorder?
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Yep we're monsters and I should just go kill myself.
lili
Specialist
- Feb 17, 2022
- 319
Me to. I just hurt the people that love me and that's all I'm good at.
lili
Specialist
- Feb 17, 2022
- 319
I feel the same way. I destroy peoples lives and constantly traumatize people. I'm so needy too and I really hate that.
Shameful to think the lengths Ive gone through with this thing to avoid feeling lonely. I don't like it.
Al Cappella
Are we there yet?
- Feb 2, 2022
- 888
I don't know about destroyed, I'm still here after all, but it certainly has made things a lot worse than would have been the case otherwise. Conversely, I haven't destroyed anyone else either, but have certainly made things difficult and unpleasant on occasion. It's certainly not been a picnic…
I'm glad someone knows how it feels. I do alot to avoid how I'm truely feeling. I hurt people that cared about me tho. I hate myself.
LucieInTheDark
Menhera girl
- Aug 3, 2021
- 70
I don't know if I had bpd but my mental illnesses pretty much addled me and made me take horrible decisions in where I hurt people and lost a lot of people who I really loved and cared about with all of my heart. I miss them but they despise me now, I'd do anything just to hear their voice again, or to be able to be their friend again. Eventually this will happen as well with everyone I'm friends with right now. Nobody lasts long in my life
Same here. I feel like Humpty Dumpty. I try so hard to process my pain and grow, only to be stuck because I gave up trying.
It's all my fault.
It's all my fault.
goofy
Chicago's goofiest shooter
- Apr 9, 2022
- 57
I don't believe in BPD or any "personality disorders" but yes.
I've gotten alot better at not destroying my life but my entire teenage years I would constantly blow up my entire life and shoot myself in the kneecap just to make myself more miserable. Even doxxed myself and my credit card information at one point.
I've gotten alot better at not destroying my life but my entire teenage years I would constantly blow up my entire life and shoot myself in the kneecap just to make myself more miserable. Even doxxed myself and my credit card information at one point.
BPD has completely ruined my life, destroyed the only relationship that meant anything to me
lili
Specialist
- Feb 17, 2022
- 319
I'm sorry your going through this. I feel borderline has really affected the way I have relationships too.
I really hate having it, but I've never met anyone who has it, not even in mental hospitals. At least it brings some sort of comfort to know the prevalence of others out there, as frustrating and sad as it is there are others who go through this.
Yes… everything's falling apart as we speak because of it. It's not just 100% that but I'd be coping a lot better without it.
lostmylove
Specialist
- Apr 1, 2022
- 304
My partner would tell me he had bpd. I don't know if he was diagnosed with it or not. I could ask his parents but I'm not really sure if appropriate as he's now passed.
He would be erratic, smash up the house, do risky stuff, reckless driving. Mood swings, crash cars, overdose.+ more All signs of bpd.
I loved him so much though and just couldn't deal with it that well . But I never abandoned him or made him feel bad .
Wonder if that enabled him.. so many questions it's difficult to know
He would be erratic, smash up the house, do risky stuff, reckless driving. Mood swings, crash cars, overdose.+ more All signs of bpd.
I loved him so much though and just couldn't deal with it that well . But I never abandoned him or made him feel bad .
Wonder if that enabled him.. so many questions it's difficult to know
Dot
Info abt typng styl on prfle.
- Sep 26, 2021
- 3,333
I am very literally in the process of doing this every single day, and they also assure me it's untreatable. Biggest reason to ctb. I don't want to be this but I can't make it stop.
who assures you BPD is untreatable? That's really not the case. There are no medications specifically for BPD, but there are different therapies that are very helpful in the treatment of BPD.
eLdus
Member
- Apr 9, 2022
- 73
Yes DBT (Dialectical Behaviour Therapy) is particularly helpful for BPD and emotional dysregulation.
My ex of 8 years has BPD. My current gf has BPD, but I think our relationships are over because our sexualities doesn't match, she has high libido and mine is low. I myself have NPD.
Life is hell. I am never enough. I don't know what I want. I am always lonely.
I feel like a garbage bag.
But instead of garbage there's only pain inside.
Life is hell. I am never enough. I don't know what I want. I am always lonely.
I feel like a garbage bag.
But instead of garbage there's only pain inside.
Some people with BPD consider sex to be a measurement of their partner's love for them. They also tend to have high sex drives, and they view rejection as a sign that you don't love them. It's down to lack of self worth and a deep need to be loved.
Could you and your partner engage in some couples therapy, in order to find some compromise ?
Starryeyes
Experienced
- Sep 22, 2021
- 237
Yes, I know that. Unfortunately it won't work out because I lied (to myself also) about my sexuality to get that love. I am not really attracted to her, I am not bi or maybe asexual... but can love a woman because it's only my core (inner child) that is capable of love but that love doesn't have sexual element obviously. It's not healthy or mature. My sharade fell apart, she sees through my manipulations that worked on my ex.
She's smart and strong. I need to stop torturing her and go back to torturing myself. I am very sick and conflicted.
You must let her go, for her sanity, and for your own. I wish you luck.
Spiritual survivor
A born again but occasionally suicidal
- Feb 13, 2022
- 510
Yes. I suffered with what is diagnosed as BPD. Unstable emotions, difficulty with stability in general. Relationships failed. Promiscuity. I was extremely immature in life compared to my peers. Eventually I realized something was wrong and I'm failing at life.
lofticries
obedear
- Feb 27, 2021
- 1,470
Yes. In a lot of ways. Don't think i've destroyed anyone else's though (besides my parents with disappointment). I am a big shut in afterall and when I wasn't so much I always kept to myself.
Completely ruined my life. Can't live with the guilt. I'm just incapable of living. Currently under investigation by the police. My life is over.
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