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charcoalcat

charcoalcat

The only thing humans are equal in is death
Apr 17, 2018
123
I think I've turned into a zombie. Currently I'm totally devoid of any emotions, occasionally I still feel a lil sadness that's it. I can't even feel anger. And I'm not on any drugs. Watching gore vids I'm beginning to understand what makes some people so numb they ctb without hesitation. I've become the walking dead.

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Undeadbird

Undeadbird

Bird
May 16, 2024
7
More suicidal than I've ever been and yet devoid of emotion, my mind is mostly blank and slow when I try to think. So yeah I feel pretty zombiefied.
 
FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,823
Know the feeling, yet it isn't really a feeling, is it? Emptiness, autopilot, unrealness... zombie mode.
 
divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
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Im getting there . Its a defense mechanism . Brain dissassociates when life is to painful
 
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sadalways

sadalways

My birth was an error
Sep 5, 2024
292
Pretty much, and i don't know if it's because i'm on meds or not but if i stop taking the meds i feel like i'm gonna cry for the most dumb reasons.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,315
Yep pretty much, I'm so fucked now I can't even think about ctb.
 
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Skylar6

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Feb 11, 2025
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I think I've turned into a zombie. Currently I'm totally devoid of any emotions, occasionally I still feel a lil sadness that's it. I can't even feel anger. And I'm not on any drugs. Watching gore vids I'm beginning to understand what makes some people so numb they ctb without hesitation. I've become the walking dead.

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Simmilar. I think I'm letting go of mortal things.
 
MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
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soonatpeace777888

soonatpeace777888

Arcanist
Jul 4, 2023
411
Yes. My brain is fried and I'm next to useless but it numbs the pain.
 
Salting the wounds

Salting the wounds

Member
Dec 2, 2024
87
Welcome to the club, as they said above the brain gets fucked up when your life is a trauma.
When I was a child and teenager I used to be a little more empathetic and sensitive, I couldn't even see blood that scared me.
Recently my grandmother died of an acv in front of me, I didn't even flinch or mourn.
I am an absolute zombie, but more like a psychotic one or something like that.
The other day on the street some homeless guys approached me and wanted to ask me for money in a pretty violent way, I reacted instantly in a cold way and held one of them looking him in the eyes. the guy was really scared.
I discovered all this and I started watching gore videos, they cause me absolutely nothing.
I leave my house for the night.
I also believe that it is the fault of so much medication for so long
 
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theboy

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Jul 15, 2022
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It is strange that when they tell us: Zombie
 

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