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fedupwithlife

Student
Jul 28, 2023
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i dont watch gore but for the people that do have you ever seen someone calm during their ctb?
 
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KarmicRain

KarmicRain

Member
Mar 27, 2023
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So I didn't actually commit but I once sat outside a window 20 stories up.
Honestly it was probably the most tranquil experience of my life. Weird considering my usual clumsiness/lack of balance gives me an irrational fear of heights, even just 2ft off the ground. but from 100ft of the ground? It just felt calming. the distance of 1 foot would have been the end and I felt ready.
I'd be long gone if I didn't have any family.
 
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yellowroses

yellowroses

Ever Seeking
Jun 12, 2023
91
Every time I've managed to get to the point of losing consciousness during an attempt I always feel extremely peaceful and content. Obviously, every time I've been brought back or woke up, but never once experienced that "last minute" regret/panic a lot of people talk about. Maybe that's just me though
 
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some_creative_alias

Member
Jul 16, 2023
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I was up until the rope around my neck started squeezing my carotids and thought, felt myself beggining to black out and thought "oh shit this is really happening" before backing out of it quickly
(I was doing a partial which is how i was able to get back up lol)
I know i've just got to give myself though. It just takes a few more seconds of commitment..
 
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Stormy Raine

Stormy Raine

Quietly counting down the days, hours, minutes..
Apr 7, 2023
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i dont watch gore but for the people that do have you ever seen someone calm during their ctb?
For me personally, every attempt that is my happiest day on earth! Just the thought I won't be coming back makes me so happy. I usually do my method and lay down and relax and watch a movie as I wait for my bus to arrive. It's never gore-like. As usual, I always wake up hours later pissed because I'm alive and usually sick, the sickness is the least of my worries. I go on and try life again and find the courage to try another attempt..it always ends the same. I just can't bare waking up alive again, it's a horrible feeling.
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
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The 2nd time for me, it was if not only my life flashing past me in a quick sequence but calming as what laid in store for me. That was till the police burst in and stopped me and dragged me to a hospital.

Walter
 
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Myexit

Member
Aug 4, 2023
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I'm new here but I cannot get my head around why so many are saying they had several failed attempts. Surely if you fail once then you must guarantee the next attempt will be successful.
So sad to read that so many have tried and failed but still wanting to ctb
 
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Alltheywanted

Alltheywanted

Nobody knows what I see
Mar 6, 2023
331
The whole day was strangely quiet and peaceful, i wasn't happy or sad but i was comfortable with my decision.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
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i dont watch gore but for the people that do have you ever seen someone calm during their ctb?
Yes, national TV on PBS, the Swiss Dignitas, 60 yr old guy could barely walk, awful disease, he was totally calm the 30 minutes after he first drank the anti-nausea, then took the N without hesitation, gone in seconds
 
PinkyStat

PinkyStat

Itā€™s killing me
Jun 4, 2023
143
I dont know, i was pretty calm in my last attempt just because i was very sleepy, if i only had N or a gun i would definitely be chilling
 
SenseOfLoss

SenseOfLoss

life could have been so beautiful
Feb 24, 2023
208
The first few times I was very focused and calm. But whenever I managed to hit my carotid artery, a very strange feeling suddenly spread through my brain, making me immediately flinch. I think this is where the SI instinctively kicked in. Further attempts were then rather full of panic, as I knew I couldn't get it right.
 
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Bobert_Beniro

Bobert_Beniro

Life sucks and then you die.
Mar 14, 2023
346
Every time I've managed to get to the point of losing consciousness during an attempt I always feel extremely peaceful and content. Obviously, every time I've been brought back or woke up, but never once experienced that "last minute" regret/panic a lot of people talk about. Maybe that's just me though
what methods did you use?
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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what methods did you use?
I'm in with that question, too. To me it seems most people failed with hanging, anyone here failed with other methods? I myself never really attempted yet. Just, I'm prepared and I could go ahead with the CO method.
 

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