Discussion Has anyone ever considered becoming a punching bag for unethical science experiments?

[bitter]

This probably sounds ridiculous. However, for a while, I have thought of how my body would essentially go to waste when I CTB. I have nothing and no one to live for, no dignity, no skills, no valuable attributes, no intelligence, no hope, nothing at all. If unethical science experiments do exist, I imagine it would be like torture. But it would probably be better to hurt for a reason than to live for no reason at all.

I'm just curious if anyone else thought about something like this.

I would not hesitate for a second to blow my head off if I had a shotgun available. I'm so sick of being alive. I'm so tired of being so worthless. Yet I still want at least to offer something to the world if my destiny is CTB.

 

[SD2007]

I would actually be very interested in this. Would be cool and could possibly help humanity

 

[.idiot]

This probably sounds ridiculous. However, for a while, I have thought of how my body would essentially go to waste when I CTB. I have nothing and no one to live for, no dignity, no skills, no valuable attributes, no intelligence, no hope, nothing at all. If unethical science experiments do exist, I imagine it would be like torture. But it would probably be better to hurt for a reason than to live for no reason at all.

I'm just curious if anyone else thought about something like this.

I would not hesitate for a second to blow my head off if I had a shotgun available. I'm so sick of being alive. I'm so tired of being so worthless. Yet I still want at least to offer something to the world if my destiny is CTB.

I would actually be very interested in this. Would be cool and could possibly help humanity

Sorry to break this to you all, but whenever a breakthrough in anything is made- for example, potential cures to cancer- all of a sudden, multiple terabytes of CP appear on the computers of the ones to discover it, and along with it their research somehow vanishes. How? No clue. Trust the government, they have your BEST interests in mind, don't question these situations. :)

 

[bitter]

Sorry to break this to you all, but whenever a breakthrough in anything is made- for example, potential cures to cancer- all of a sudden, multiple terabytes of CP appear on the computers of the ones to discover it, and along with it their research somehow vanishes. How? No clue. Trust the government, they have your BEST interests in mind, don't question these situations. :)

To clarify, do you mean that research essentially amounts to nothing in some situations, such as the ones you described? I guess that makes the whole point of sacrificing my body less appealing.

In any case, though, my body would have gone to rot in a garbage bin, so it's not like there is much of a better use for it.

 

[GoodTimes]

I have thought of this as well but maybe not in such an extreme way. I was thinking of recording myself when I CBT so that others can get an idea of what its like if they're curious what it looks like.
Don't make yourself suffer though man thats terrible.

 

[N@te]

This probably sounds ridiculous. However, for a while, I have thought of how my body would essentially go to waste when I CTB. I have nothing and no one to live for, no dignity, no skills, no valuable attributes, no intelligence, no hope, nothing at all. If unethical science experiments do exist, I imagine it would be like torture. But it would probably be better to hurt for a reason than to live for no reason at all.

I'm just curious if anyone else thought about something like this.

I would not hesitate for a second to blow my head off if I had a shotgun available. I'm so sick of being alive. I'm so tired of being so worthless. Yet I still want at least to offer something to the world if my destiny is CTB.

You would have trouble finding a lab to work with, due to regulations and such. But theoretically you could experiment on yourself and post the results online. That wouldn't be ideal though. You don't want to risk getting paralyzed and not being able to kill yourself.

 

[bitter]

I have thought of this as well but maybe not in such an extreme way. I was thinking of recording myself when I CBT so that others can get an idea of what its like if they're curious what it looks like.
Don't make yourself suffer though man thats terrible.

I just want to suffer for a reason. Because my suffering right now is for nothing. There is no purpose for it, no goal that makes it worthwhile. No matter what, I will suffer. So the aim is to create at least some value out of it. I want my suffering to make someone's life better. But all it has amounted to currently is just making me feel like a waste of space. Food and shelter provided to me by my parents, people expecting things of me, and friends who imagine a future for myself that doesn't exist. I'm such a worthless disappointment. I have struggled for years to imagine how on Earth I could become useful for anything or anyone. And my search has only proven to me that there probably is nothing to make my existence valuable whatsoever. That's why I turned to the utmost basics. If as a person I cannot provide anything, then is there anything that anyone could yield from my body? As a test subject? Or am I even worthless to that degree? I hate being alive so much because every moment reminds me of how pointless it is.

You would have trouble finding a lab to work with, due to regulations and such. But theoretically you could experiment on yourself and post the results online. That wouldn't be ideal though. You don't want to risk getting paralyzed and not being able to kill yourself.

Yes, that's a concern. If I render myself unable to kill myself, or people find out and trap me in a ward or some other place, then I'll have a much lower chance of succeeding at ending my life.

 

[desiderium]

I would LOVE for my body to be put to use after I pass. It's why I've also opted in as an organ donor when I got my driver's license- I'll be dead. I won't need my body or my organs or anything in/on it anymore, so why wouldn't I sign up to donate my body for research? If someone can make use of any part of me, I'm happy for it.

I've often hoped that my body ends up at a body farm or some other research lab. I'd be okay if they shoved my corpse in the ground and studied the bugs that festered in my body. If the only good I bring to the world is after I die, that would be enough.

Obviously my ideal scenario is that nobody finds my body at all when I die. If they do find me, however, I hope my corpse is shipped off somewhere for some research purpose.

 

[GoodTimes]

I just want to suffer for a reason. Because my suffering right now is for nothing. There is no purpose for it, no goal that makes it worthwhile. No matter what, I will suffer. So the aim is to create at least some value out of it. I want my suffering to make someone's life better. But all it has amounted to currently is just making me feel like a waste of space. Food and shelter provided to me by my parents, people expecting things of me, and friends who imagine a future for myself that doesn't exist. I'm such a worthless disappointment. I have struggled for years to imagine how on Earth I could become useful for anything or anyone. And my search has only proven to me that there probably is nothing to make my existence valuable whatsoever. That's why I turned to the utmost basics. If as a person I cannot provide anything, then is there anything that anyone could yield from my body? As a test subject? Or am I even worthless to that degree? I hate being alive so much because every moment reminds me of how pointless it is.

Yes, that's a concern. If I render myself unable to kill myself, or people find out and trap me in a ward or some other place, then I'll have a much lower chance of succeeding at ending my life.

I can understand those feelings and feeling like the world is better off without you however, I dont think youre worthless or useless. I don't know how to explain it but other people really do fascinate me, I noticed everyone is talented and useful.
You are also strong, stronger than most people. I admire that you are able to share how you feel and be honest about it.

I'm not here to talk you out of it, I just hope no matter what happens you'll realize that alot of what you said isn't true. If you need help talk to me :)

 

[bitter]

I would LOVE for my body to be put to use after I pass. It's why I've also opted in as an organ donor when I got my driver's license- I'll be dead. I won't need my body or my organs or anything in/on it anymore, so why wouldn't I sign up to donate my body for research? If someone can make use of any part of me, I'm happy for it.

I've often hoped that my body ends up at a body farm or some other research lab. I'd be okay if they shoved my corpse in the ground and studied the bugs that festered in my body. If the only good I bring to the world is after I die, that would be enough.

Obviously my ideal scenario is that nobody finds my body at all when I die. If they do find me, however, I hope my corpse is shipped off somewhere for some research purpose.

That's a good idea too. I was just wondering if there were research projects that require someone to be alive but face obstacles because of the ethical concerns they pose.

 

[N@te]

That's a good idea too. I was just wondering if there were research projects that require someone to be alive but face obstacles because of the ethical concerns they pose.

any clinical investigator is gonna have dozens of experiments they can't perform due to financial or ethical concerns

 

[Somewhat Suicidal]

I have thought about it but am not sure how to go about it in practice, I've been an organ donor ever since I could (drivers licence I think?!), but apart from that theres probably not much to be done as far as I know. Even that might be less and less interesting as I havent exactly treated my body like a temple and am already in my mid 30s now.

I just want to suffer for a reason. Because my suffering right now is for nothing. There is no purpose for it, no goal that makes it worthwhile. No matter what, I will suffer. So the aim is to create at least some value out of it. I want my suffering to make someone's life better. But all it has amounted to currently is just making me feel like a waste of space. Food and shelter provided to me by my parents, people expecting things of me, and friends who imagine a future for myself that doesn't exist. I'm such a worthless disappointment. I have struggled for years to imagine how on Earth I could become useful for anything or anyone. And my search has only proven to me that there probably is nothing to make my existence valuable whatsoever. That's why I turned to the utmost basics. If as a person I cannot provide anything, then is there anything that anyone could yield from my body? As a test subject? Or am I even worthless to that degree? I hate being alive so much because every moment reminds me of how pointless it is.

I wouldn't want to prolong my suffering for that, I' to exhausted for that at this point. It needs to end, one way or the other, as in be relieved of it in life or death with the former being an increasingly unlikely option. But they can make any use of me without that being the case, I'm game. Your devotion to this is admirable tho.

any clinical investigator is gonna have dozens of experiments they can't perform due to financial or ethical concerns

I wonder if there was a way around that via a will...